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im exhausted. over the last few days i've only slept for maybe 7 hours. the rest of that time has been spent with ethan (whom i love dearly) and working. it's been fairly brutal. the even more severe lack of sleep and long days have severely worn me down at this point. i didn't even realize it until now. i get to sleep in a little longer tomorrow, but then it's dinner with ethan, jenna, marty and sue. after that, hopefully going to nick's, but after what he told me today at work, i'm not sure it's gonna happen. only time will tell on that one. i kinda wish i knew what's up with jenna and her relationship situation. she says they broke up, but i'm not soo sure right now. whatever's goin down, i hope it ends up making her happy, and that she just figures out who she is and what she wants. it sucks, but as long as i don't know what's goin on with that, it's making me crazy. i have no idea why, but the nearest i can tell is that i'm obviously not over her, and in some way i guess i'm just waiting for something that won't happen. i've now proved her wrong though. she always said i'd never wait for her, but here i am doing just that. only problem is that it's useless and really makes no difference. i think i need to spend more time away from her and keep forcing myself to get over it. that was working for a little while, but then she said she broke up with zak and things got all fucky. i just want this feeling to end already. i guess it's time to let it die.