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i'm enjoying a nice quiet sunday right now. the wind is kinda loud outside, and the monitor is full of feedback, but inside my head it's pretty quiet. i sorta try to find new ways every day to move on in life, which is to say i try to find avenues for travel that don't really involve reminders or even memories of jenna sometimes. this all sounds fairly sad, and pathetic but it's really all i have to work with. i don't want to drive myself insane waiting forever for something that will almost definately never happen. and besides, if i ever miss her i can count on the fact that i have to see her anyway (ethan :)). i hate it terribly that i have to force myself forward, but there's just nothing left to do. here i go.........starting with sunday and coffee with old friends!