my mind where i hold you
yesterday * i had a mental break down. =( i`ll explain later.
today * i had stoner eyes.. i didnt wanna go b/c of what took place last night but i went anyways.. science i have a C. espanol me n jessi wrote all over laurens pants and they wrote on my backpack spoldi too.. math was dull i got my cellie taken away =) lunch carla was suppose to fuck with ash.. anglish we have to read this lame book ethan frome.. us his marian wasnt there tear but me n justine talked about these kids shes gunna bring to loud fest one for me! yay boys boys boys.. health we had some lady talk about rape me n erica laughed.. issues in gov we had a sub. track we got out outfits -- very ghett-o. i was making friends.. me n andrea named our stick oliver. i randomly came up with it.. i`ll prob go to sleep early
do you ever wake up in the night & wonder why your alone?
* so about that mental break down last night. ok at first it was just a typical fight with the family until they started saying im dumb, dress weird, lie about going to new haven.. they didnt say it like that but it hurt me alot. ive just been so stressed i snapped.. then pete offered me to leave so i packed my bag and called my auntie karen to go with her then pete goes i didnt mean leave the house stupid. so i got mad starting crying threw the phone & toke my bags and ran outside with my bags then pete and tom tried bringing me back inside i dont like when people touch me so i swang my arms at tom.. they got me inside then locked the door so i tried opening my window which was nailed shut. i tried throwing my head into the window but it wouldnt break. i really needed to get outta there fast.. they were like no just so you can get away with lying.. ugh then i threw all my hair spray, gel, makeup everywhere i threw shoes too. they were about to get me arrested. i wanted to go auntie karens or the hospital.. i couldnt be around them.. they kept making me hate myself even more.. then i toke out all my sharp objects under my pillow & you know what i did.. i cried really bad my auntie kept me on the phone.. it really wasnt pretty. i scare myself sometimes. they thought i was on acid. i dont do well holding all my anger inside i get the violence urge really bad. i really need a new life.
* not much to talk about anymore. im having a really tough time right now.
later dayz
lotta
today * i had stoner eyes.. i didnt wanna go b/c of what took place last night but i went anyways.. science i have a C. espanol me n jessi wrote all over laurens pants and they wrote on my backpack spoldi too.. math was dull i got my cellie taken away =) lunch carla was suppose to fuck with ash.. anglish we have to read this lame book ethan frome.. us his marian wasnt there tear but me n justine talked about these kids shes gunna bring to loud fest one for me! yay boys boys boys.. health we had some lady talk about rape me n erica laughed.. issues in gov we had a sub. track we got out outfits -- very ghett-o. i was making friends.. me n andrea named our stick oliver. i randomly came up with it.. i`ll prob go to sleep early
do you ever wake up in the night & wonder why your alone?
* so about that mental break down last night. ok at first it was just a typical fight with the family until they started saying im dumb, dress weird, lie about going to new haven.. they didnt say it like that but it hurt me alot. ive just been so stressed i snapped.. then pete offered me to leave so i packed my bag and called my auntie karen to go with her then pete goes i didnt mean leave the house stupid. so i got mad starting crying threw the phone & toke my bags and ran outside with my bags then pete and tom tried bringing me back inside i dont like when people touch me so i swang my arms at tom.. they got me inside then locked the door so i tried opening my window which was nailed shut. i tried throwing my head into the window but it wouldnt break. i really needed to get outta there fast.. they were like no just so you can get away with lying.. ugh then i threw all my hair spray, gel, makeup everywhere i threw shoes too. they were about to get me arrested. i wanted to go auntie karens or the hospital.. i couldnt be around them.. they kept making me hate myself even more.. then i toke out all my sharp objects under my pillow & you know what i did.. i cried really bad my auntie kept me on the phone.. it really wasnt pretty. i scare myself sometimes. they thought i was on acid. i dont do well holding all my anger inside i get the violence urge really bad. i really need a new life.
* not much to talk about anymore. im having a really tough time right now.
later dayz
lotta