the nights we use to have
yesterday * i went to walmart.. woot woot mega t is bitchennn..
today * i got hyped up this morning.. ew why is jenn so afraid to stick the middle finger up in my face instead of acting like a pussy? hmm dumb skank. science i talked to sherry & sat on kevies lap. espanol joe left *tear* then me, laur, jessi were grossing out spoldi.. haha then me, jessi & aleasha were talking about some good stuff.. then spoldi told us the word for cum is "male juice" lmao.. kristin & kevie texted me during capt about going clubbing -- im so in. went to kelleys n chilled out.. jess picked us up.. track was muddy & cold =( jeff called after i got out the shower i informed him that tom & i dont talk anymore. then i was going to mall it until no1 picked me up so i was like screw it. sorrie lisa & joe =( then steph wanted to hang out so i was like ok rad. i told off her xx gerald. steph is too funny.. all of sudden that song everybody getting tipsy comes on.. steph goes it sounds like everybody getting tits.. then i thought it was everybody getting tips. ahaha nice to spend time with her again..
i know i will always stop & see you and we`ll run into each other`s fucked up lives
* thinking alot usually means trouble for me. i was thinking about my jess last night.. i hate the way things are the way with me n her. were suppose to be best friends but we dont talk as much. im always the one who calls her most the time. she never wants to hang out with me instead she hangs out with other people which is cool but i miss her. she doesnt read this journal so she doesnt really know whats going on in my life which sucks. i think she blamed me alot last year. i never thought things would be the way they are right now between us.. im going to see how many days pass by until she makes an effort to call me. if she cared she would call or i would die next to the phone. -- best friends means best friends forever.. forever wasnt that long i suppose. i have tons of friends thats something i dont need to worry about but whenever its time for people to be there for me i feel as if im alone. ive got no best friend anymore. everyone always fades away or i fight with them. im better off not talking period.
* i wonder why im so alone. i blame myself of course. no1 else to take the blame willingly theres alot of things wrong with me idk how to fix them all by myself. ugh its so hard to look on the brighter side all alone. sometimes i like that way i dont want people to care about i just like to care about them.. other times i feel as if i need to feel wanted by atleast someone.. i feel like a wasteful lush. let me stop bitching like a baby. im done.
* people who talk shit online are so screwed up then wanna block you afterwords so you cant say anything back. i got carlas back on monday ;] ha ha
later dayz
lotta
today * i got hyped up this morning.. ew why is jenn so afraid to stick the middle finger up in my face instead of acting like a pussy? hmm dumb skank. science i talked to sherry & sat on kevies lap. espanol joe left *tear* then me, laur, jessi were grossing out spoldi.. haha then me, jessi & aleasha were talking about some good stuff.. then spoldi told us the word for cum is "male juice" lmao.. kristin & kevie texted me during capt about going clubbing -- im so in. went to kelleys n chilled out.. jess picked us up.. track was muddy & cold =( jeff called after i got out the shower i informed him that tom & i dont talk anymore. then i was going to mall it until no1 picked me up so i was like screw it. sorrie lisa & joe =( then steph wanted to hang out so i was like ok rad. i told off her xx gerald. steph is too funny.. all of sudden that song everybody getting tipsy comes on.. steph goes it sounds like everybody getting tits.. then i thought it was everybody getting tips. ahaha nice to spend time with her again..
i know i will always stop & see you and we`ll run into each other`s fucked up lives
* thinking alot usually means trouble for me. i was thinking about my jess last night.. i hate the way things are the way with me n her. were suppose to be best friends but we dont talk as much. im always the one who calls her most the time. she never wants to hang out with me instead she hangs out with other people which is cool but i miss her. she doesnt read this journal so she doesnt really know whats going on in my life which sucks. i think she blamed me alot last year. i never thought things would be the way they are right now between us.. im going to see how many days pass by until she makes an effort to call me. if she cared she would call or i would die next to the phone. -- best friends means best friends forever.. forever wasnt that long i suppose. i have tons of friends thats something i dont need to worry about but whenever its time for people to be there for me i feel as if im alone. ive got no best friend anymore. everyone always fades away or i fight with them. im better off not talking period.
* i wonder why im so alone. i blame myself of course. no1 else to take the blame willingly theres alot of things wrong with me idk how to fix them all by myself. ugh its so hard to look on the brighter side all alone. sometimes i like that way i dont want people to care about i just like to care about them.. other times i feel as if i need to feel wanted by atleast someone.. i feel like a wasteful lush. let me stop bitching like a baby. im done.
* people who talk shit online are so screwed up then wanna block you afterwords so you cant say anything back. i got carlas back on monday ;] ha ha
later dayz
lotta