i`m still here, the faithful one
yesterday * nothing really happened..
today * i got my wish no skool its a day like this were i kinda wish my wish back fired.. i was bored i slept til 9am then watched tv, talked to jordo for a bit, changed my journal layout, prettied up my profile [lostloverxo] yea.. then i just ate my dinner in silence in my room.. then i watched dateline with mother about people that do deadly things for $.. selfish wastes of human life right there.. i really wanted to go to the mall to see ric flair but no one wanted to go with me & i didnt wanna be alone either.. life sucks when people dont really wanna hang out with u anymore.. yet people say im popular.. haha yea ok.. i might just go to sleep after this depends on if anyone cares to talk to me..
i know u`ve heard it all before & every1 makes mistakes these days.. heyee nobodys perfect but the choices that you make may involve some1 else
* people still seem like a mystery to me still.. so far im trying to figure someone's motives out so another person wont get hurt in the process.. i think of my own motives i just want to be happy i dont want anyone in my path to suffer either so i take the pain.. but somethings telling me this people is out for greed and something i cant generate just yet in my brain.. ;]
* im kinda in a depressed state.. nothing really triggered it either.. prob being alone i guess.. i thought about it this morning.. for some reason im never happy.. even in a perfect relationship i made myself unhappy till something went wrong n i was either dumped or doing the dumping.. why cant i just be happy for no reason? i should be ok being independent now but im worse.. im mad at people who dont wanna hang out with me anymore.. my old friends never invite me anyway yet at the same time i want new friends i could get close to but im not good at making anything last.
* i look at the stars wondering what the future will be like.. does anyone else ever look at the snow in the trees? does anyone ever realize when snow falls you can actually see the pattern in the snow flakes.. i start to treasure the beauty in things.. if only i can see that in myself.. never.. another day gone by slowly..
later dayz
lotta<3 nikki
today * i got my wish no skool its a day like this were i kinda wish my wish back fired.. i was bored i slept til 9am then watched tv, talked to jordo for a bit, changed my journal layout, prettied up my profile [lostloverxo] yea.. then i just ate my dinner in silence in my room.. then i watched dateline with mother about people that do deadly things for $.. selfish wastes of human life right there.. i really wanted to go to the mall to see ric flair but no one wanted to go with me & i didnt wanna be alone either.. life sucks when people dont really wanna hang out with u anymore.. yet people say im popular.. haha yea ok.. i might just go to sleep after this depends on if anyone cares to talk to me..
i know u`ve heard it all before & every1 makes mistakes these days.. heyee nobodys perfect but the choices that you make may involve some1 else
* people still seem like a mystery to me still.. so far im trying to figure someone's motives out so another person wont get hurt in the process.. i think of my own motives i just want to be happy i dont want anyone in my path to suffer either so i take the pain.. but somethings telling me this people is out for greed and something i cant generate just yet in my brain.. ;]
* im kinda in a depressed state.. nothing really triggered it either.. prob being alone i guess.. i thought about it this morning.. for some reason im never happy.. even in a perfect relationship i made myself unhappy till something went wrong n i was either dumped or doing the dumping.. why cant i just be happy for no reason? i should be ok being independent now but im worse.. im mad at people who dont wanna hang out with me anymore.. my old friends never invite me anyway yet at the same time i want new friends i could get close to but im not good at making anything last.
* i look at the stars wondering what the future will be like.. does anyone else ever look at the snow in the trees? does anyone ever realize when snow falls you can actually see the pattern in the snow flakes.. i start to treasure the beauty in things.. if only i can see that in myself.. never.. another day gone by slowly..
later dayz
lotta<3 nikki