im not much of a jester
yesterday * i was having another bad day.. but then i talked to larry around 9ish something like that =) we were making plans for a fab. weekend together.. as i start singing the song so happy togetherrrrrr
today * science we did a essay thingy and i drew a pic of propaganda for us his. espanol we were watching a movie with alot of sex sences.. and spoldi said the word bitch in a funny manner.. math i actually paided attention and understood.. oh yea mad props.. lunch was kinda dull i thought then manny crashed into the trash can.. anglish we got a new project due.. ick.. us his i presented my picture.. it was a pic of stick people with anti bush signs and go kerry signs.. it was rad to the max. umm health we talked about controling relationships.. issues in gov i read my speech about john stollenbergs theory that there is just as many sexes as there are people on our gay debate.. b- rock steady.. later on im going to the movies to see that johnny deep movie with larry<3 trash chad kristie kelley who ever else.. i cant wait to see larry<3 yay ive been waiting all week along.. im mad curran wont go..
you can`t burn me ive spilled my guts out in the past taken advantage of b/c you know where i`ve come my past
* hmm.. i guess things look good for me n larry.. im just waiting for him to ask the question in person then its gunna be hardcore.. he was telling me his xg/f was calling him.. =\ ahh i dont want to date him then him break it off with me to go back to her.. or else im gunna be crushed.. i asked him if he would do that n he said no so its cool.. i dont wanna start things but she doesnt like i can tell.. b/c im bi mostly i believe.. idk i guess shes just looking for reasons to hate me.. bi isnt a good reason to not like me already.. i have no idea how she knows about me like my name that im bi n stuff..? weird i wonder if she found my journal or knows some ppl i know.. i just hate being judged by people that have never talked to me or anything.. being bi isnt my whole life story.. i dont wanna cause trouble either theres no real reason y we cant get along.. im not gunna tell larry he cant be her friend b/c thats not right its not my place to tell him to do anything im just letting him know im worried about him talking to her.. i dont wanna get hurt. he really makes me happy i dont wanna lose him already even though hes not mine but we both consider ourselves together with that number date thing.. in the end things work out for the best i think with that quote..
* things look slim for me going down south in spring break.. i want to go believe me but the tickets are so fucking $ pricey like 500 to go texas n back WITH pit stops.. thats crazy.. i miss daddy dearest.. and my other family.. i miss using my accent in public.. texas pride u shouldnt hide but i hate when people wanna make funny of me for it.. thats another thing i hate some people in ct who think texas is all about calboys [cowboys] and horses.. uhh its actually much different sure things are a lil spread out but we got ourselves some super walmarts! =) and we arent rednecks either well atleast my part alvin, sugaland, houston..
later dayz
lotta<3 nikki