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Either I am getting larger or my pants are getting smaller..either way it's an awesome excuse to go shopping because really...pants that are too tight and don't fit are just really disgusting, and i'd rather not have that!
I went out on friday!! With erin and chris..we went to the amadan cd release and then to dennies after for some food. It was really good..I realized things like: people scare me(in both a good and bad way), and that it's easier to talk to people you don't know at all then it is to talk to people you once knew really well.
Heidi and I got together last night and went for good food, as always, and then rented foreign films, one german and one french. The food was really really good, the german movie was ok..I think I enjoyed the german itself more than the movie(and the naps throughout it hehe) and the french movie reminded me of a good video game. Levi called from winnipeg and we talked for a few minutes..now im waiting on my phone bill to see how much that is going to cost me. Whatever it costs, it was worth it!
......you're on my mind a little more than anybody else lately and it bothers me...maybe because it is a good thing and/or possibly a bad thing?...i don't know if you realize how insane i truly am..how paranoid i can get and how my brain thinks of something and will interpret it totally opposite of how it really is...the first things that come to my mind are bad thoughts so that i can't be disappointed and then when its not bad at all i go into shock with disbelief. i don't do well with confrontation, i am seriously too nice, i can barely say no and when i do i actually want to say yes because i feel bad. i talk to myself a lot, i make random noises for no apparent reason and enjoy doing it..i think it helps me know that i am alive haha. i say "go team" when i am by myself and there really is no "team" at all, just me. for enjoyment i like to sit in my kitchen and peel fruit(which by the way, i eat too much of), and then put it in a bowl and stick it in my fridge where it will sit and then be eaten. if i like a song it will be played constantly for months on end even though i have this fear that the cd will just crap out from the song being over played...i wash my hair very rarely..once a week if that and it doesnt bother me. you are one of my favorite people to listen to, and i like your voice very much, along with you weezing when you sleep. i get shy when im around you and that's not like me........i hate that you now know these things and that you can make me feel the need to tell you them even though you didnt ask to know them...i feel like if i open my mouth you will be scared away. not knowing what you think bothers me to no end....everything is really really good though and if we make it to the end of december i know that everything is going to be ok and this harsh, "tough" front that i have will disappear.
...can you come home yet?
I went out on friday!! With erin and chris..we went to the amadan cd release and then to dennies after for some food. It was really good..I realized things like: people scare me(in both a good and bad way), and that it's easier to talk to people you don't know at all then it is to talk to people you once knew really well.
Heidi and I got together last night and went for good food, as always, and then rented foreign films, one german and one french. The food was really really good, the german movie was ok..I think I enjoyed the german itself more than the movie(and the naps throughout it hehe) and the french movie reminded me of a good video game. Levi called from winnipeg and we talked for a few minutes..now im waiting on my phone bill to see how much that is going to cost me. Whatever it costs, it was worth it!
......you're on my mind a little more than anybody else lately and it bothers me...maybe because it is a good thing and/or possibly a bad thing?...i don't know if you realize how insane i truly am..how paranoid i can get and how my brain thinks of something and will interpret it totally opposite of how it really is...the first things that come to my mind are bad thoughts so that i can't be disappointed and then when its not bad at all i go into shock with disbelief. i don't do well with confrontation, i am seriously too nice, i can barely say no and when i do i actually want to say yes because i feel bad. i talk to myself a lot, i make random noises for no apparent reason and enjoy doing it..i think it helps me know that i am alive haha. i say "go team" when i am by myself and there really is no "team" at all, just me. for enjoyment i like to sit in my kitchen and peel fruit(which by the way, i eat too much of), and then put it in a bowl and stick it in my fridge where it will sit and then be eaten. if i like a song it will be played constantly for months on end even though i have this fear that the cd will just crap out from the song being over played...i wash my hair very rarely..once a week if that and it doesnt bother me. you are one of my favorite people to listen to, and i like your voice very much, along with you weezing when you sleep. i get shy when im around you and that's not like me........i hate that you now know these things and that you can make me feel the need to tell you them even though you didnt ask to know them...i feel like if i open my mouth you will be scared away. not knowing what you think bothers me to no end....everything is really really good though and if we make it to the end of december i know that everything is going to be ok and this harsh, "tough" front that i have will disappear.
...can you come home yet?