~*Jon*~
havent updated this one in a long time!! ne ways..im really liking Jon a lot. he is so sweet. i mean i hate him with he is gone in GR for like 2 weeks @ a time but when he comes back and we hang out he says and does all the right things. I love how we get along so good. i love how we went to the beach the other day and cuddled and kissed and he held me when i was cold i love how he jsut grabs my hand and holds it even if we are sitting close to eachother in the back seat of the car i love how he rubs my head when im laying with him i love how he kisses my forehead when we are together i love how when im mad he makes me smile by saying someting dumb..i dont love him i love the things he does..i cant feel love for him yet..it just cant happen im not getting hurt this time. we hae been together for about 2 months now im not getting hurt..im not giving him my all yet i cant..its not gonna happen i have to think about myself and my feelings am i capable of "loving him" no my answer is no not yet..we need to expierence way more for me to feel that for him..but i have to say i prolly will if we are togethor longer..i havent expiernces love yet and i dont know if i want to..im to scared cause even when i didnt love someoine i got hurt and i felt like they broke my heart and that wasnt close to love so yeah im just gonna be careful..well yeah im gonna go now ttyl
loveyas
~*Jess*~
loveyas
~*Jess*~