i'm with you...
some things are becoming alarmingly clear. and i don't want to see them. because they hurt. sting, even. but i have to face them sooner or later.
it sucks not being good enough.
anyway. today i went to old town with my family {that's where my grandparents and a bunch of aunts and uncles live}. we picked up some lunch and then went to my grandparents' house, where we ate and visited with them, my aunt judy, and my three-year-old cousin cali for a while. then we went to my aunt and uncle's eye care place, and my aunt checked all of our eyes. my right eye got worse, heh, and i ordered new frames {glasses}. gary wasn't there so he couldn't put my lenses in right away, but i should get them soon. i hope.
after the eye stuff, we went back to my grandparents' for a little while, and then we left town. i drove most of the way home, which was okay i guess because my mind was totally blank and full at the same time, and i was driving myself crazy in the back seat. at least driving gave me something to think about.
we just got home and i was hoping someone would want to do something, but it seems that isn't the case. i wanted to get out of my house, because brian is coming and staying for THREE DAYS AND THREE NIGHTS ahh. my brother is in heaven, but i'm not exactly. :/ heh. i need to escape as much as possible. i think my mom and i are going to augusta tomorrow. she told me to invite matt to go along, but i can't really see him wanting to.
by the way, anyone wanna babysit with me on monday? heh. looks like it's just me & cali :) which will be fun in its own way - there will be no one to witness me playing with barbies, lol.
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