find your happy beginning

Dec 22, 2009 22:46

find your happy beginning
changmin-centric, implied yunho/changmin
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the anticlimactic affair of changmin's suicide.

for oannapantso &hearts :3! a part of suicide!verse and its sort of!prequel. read those first to avoid spoilers :P. and obvious warning: this entire fic is about suicide, rofl.

always the first star that i find )

p: yunho/changmin

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jinsung December 23 2009, 11:45:02 UTC
When I read the story that preceded this prequel, I was actually wondering what had happened with Changmin. This answer is an interesting one, but I noticed that in the previous fic he had appeared near catatonic and frigid, while here he's so normal. Is there an explanation for that? Or is it just that after death he just feels perfectly comfortable with manifesting his internal problems outwardly?

Thanks for writing this, I really enjoyed it.

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loveclouds December 23 2009, 14:43:20 UTC
i hope he didn't appear near catatonic because that certainly wasn't what i was intending LOLOL. since changmin's willingly removed himself from essentially feeling any emotion in his life (since he doesn't feel like he belongs, or it's better to not feel at all in order to not get hurt, etc. and what have you), it carries over to his death, although now he does feel like he fits a little better. so in death, with a blast from the past from the kindness of a stranger named yunho, that's why he feels so magnetized and wary but he can't help but live out what he was actually searching for/craving for in the life he ended so early. consider it the date yunho never got to take changmin on. ;)

i hope that answered your question in at least some way LOL :DDDD thanks for reading! :3

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jinsung December 24 2009, 04:00:39 UTC
Thanks for answering my question. I guess this calls for yet another re-read of the sequel! :D

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jinsung December 24 2009, 04:01:18 UTC
like I even needed a reason to go do it. you wouldn't believe how many times I've gone over that one.

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loveclouds December 24 2009, 04:13:16 UTC
LOL DIES YOU ARE SO CUTE. :3 i am so happy and giddy to hear that, hahahahaha :') ♥

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