a poem for chris i still love him with all my heart

[lovechris143]

I Cry Tonight

You'd say baby I love you
I'd say I love you too...
I liked it when you called me baby
but now I need someone to save me
from the misery
the sleepless nights
the pain
of a broken heart
of a lost soul
I don;t know what to do anymore
I am so lost without you
My love was real
I'm thinking yours was fake
I would never have hurt you
the way you hurt me
I would never have made you cry
the way you made me cry
I would never have made you cry
as many times you made me
I cry almost every night now
I wish I had saved all those tears
that you made me cry
so I can drown you in them
I wish I had you
I wish I had someone to hold me
the way you held me
I wish I had someone to kiss me
the way you kissed me
I wish I had someone to make me feel special
the way you made me feel special
I wish I had someone to make me feel beautiful
the way you made me feel beautiful
the way you told me I was beautiful
am I not beautiful now?
am I not special now?
am I not kissable now?
am I not holdable now?
I wish so many things
My biggest wish is you
I wish all these things
The only wish I want to come true is you
It's dissapointing
I know I can't have you
But I wish I had you
I have had you in the past
but i screwed up
I made no effort
I love you so much
All I need is your touch
I can't get your touch
and can't have you
the love
the pain
they say dont cry because its over
smile because it happened
but I'm not smiling
I'm crying
I cry tonight