the girl by the window
bah.
do you ever feel like you are just waiting for the next big thing to come into your life? transitions can be so beautiful, i suppose.
i feel like, as much as i am ready for every open opportunity and every new breath--every new laugh, and every new memory, i am still holding on to the old ones, and in doing that, i can't quite experience anything new to the full extent i could. uhm.. that may sound retarded. it kind of reminds me of an approaching spring...?
i don't know much any more.
i don't think i'm holding back due to the fear of getting hurt. to be honest, i hadn't thought about it... getting hurt is temporary.. the memories and the moments that get you there.. those are worth living for. hmm, but really.. i just wanted to flow into a new relationship. getting to know people.. growing relationships.... i'm not sure there are many things better for me. it's exhilarating to think about, really. but this opportunity.. le sigh. i wish it was everything. now. no past attached. just now and what will come.
i'm always thinking about those pearls and being on the water in greece and the songs that we will dance to. is that careless of me? le sigh.