there is no one like you.
I'm exhausted. My head still aches from cat.
Speed will only destroy me, says Reese. Today, I remembered I have made friends that I will always have as long as communication or memory holds up. That was good. There were years of my life spent investing in relationships. I had problems with that. I loved giving of myself, but once that time was over, I missed it. But that time passed, as it should. Now I realize why. I am grateful. I will always have some people to fall down upon. Even when I am scared and crying for no good reason, I only feel like I have one person to call. But that is okay. At least there is one, right?
I welcomed the New Year at Robbie's house with eerie and haunting thoughts of communion and awkward kisses. Laughter. Friends. I didn't feel very comfortable. I was upset at myself for this. I've been upset too much lately. I suppose I can only blame so much on PMS though. haha...
I think I will actually see old friends tomorrow, as much as I would rather cry and run my emotions away. That will be good for me, no doubt. I have gained too much weight, although.. if I know my body, I will lose ten pounds and a size after this damned period. That is comforting in the most twisted way..? It makes plenty of sense to me..
I wonder how Kara is doing.
Talking to Dani was amazing. I laughed. A lot. In ways I wasn't sure I could laugh. I had just forgotten. And that is sad.
It was comforting to hear her views of God and religion. In some ways, it is good to know that I am not the only one feeling completely lost. I talked to my mom about this and Chippy and other distant but important things. Then Kenny and I watched part of Jesus Camp. Oh dear. What a day. My brain ached. My heart swelled.
I'm exhausted.