"you cant make someone love you if they dont" -katrina
mAnDyGuRl4267: Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know....
i cant take being alone anymore
leave me a message cause im too depressed to talk to anyone..
so thats what my away message says right now. and thats all i can think about. everyone i know is in these great relationships-together or apart they're great. and i get nothing. i dont get why it has to be this way. my last relationship is over and its been over for awhile. fine. good. now why am i still left to be alone when everyone else was able to move on to better things? i thought i at least deserved happiness. this time last summer i was beginning the best relationship of my life. this summer-im alone. and i dont want to be back with the person i was with last year. i dont want that relationship back-i like our friendship much more. but i want something like that. its like ive been trying to replace him since its been over. and ive tried to-but unsuccessfully. im trying to hard. but when i dont try i feel helpless. but when i do try i feel like an idiot because everyone i meet or am attracted to at that time is in a relationship. irony is raining on my head like a spring shower..
its hard for me to be single. i dont like it-i hate being alone. dont give me that "you dont need a man to complete you" crap because thats not what im saying. thats not what im saying. im saying that being a Cancer, i need to attach to someone and hold on for dear life. not in a wierd clingy way. its more of an energy thing. its wierd to explain. i dont know.
something in the way he moves..attracts me like no other lover
that song was on a second ago. 'Something' -The Beatles. Something, thats what i need. no-not a thing. a person. a someone. This is perhaps one of the worst depictions of me-this entry. those who dont know me are reading this and thinking that im always like this. (oh -and how the critics will react).
i go through this every summer. this withdrawal from life and love and my own personal pursuit of happiness. its like the summer is my declaration of independent depression. i think i have seasonal depression. this only happens in the summer. i need someone in my life. i need someone who loves me. i need to fall in love again. if waiting for it is supposed to make it worth the wait-then this is going to be the greatest love of all.
i hope..