no words
last night was so many things all rolled up into one. my head is spinning just thinking about it all. i got into this stupid fight with my mom (again) and it ended up with her telling me to get out. so i did. all the way to bristol. i didnt know what to do and i was afraid id do something highly irrational like purposely drive my car in the wrong lane, or into a pole (both of which i thought of). to save my sanity, i picked up ashley and we just drove. eventually she called kevin-because he calms me down and she knew he would make me feel better. i ended up staying with them for quite some time. it was fun and sad and all i wanted to do was break down and cry but i felt like i couldnt because kevin was there. so we took turns driving in either my car or kevins so as not to waste all of our gas driving around the east bay. i drove kevin and ashley back to providence so ashley could go meet her friend, and tehn kevin drove my car home (a.k.a. bristol, not my house). i slept over kevins house due to the immensely generous parents that he has. and then this morning i went to meet marisa at ric and we went to her grandmas house. and then i came home. and now im wishing that i hadnt stopped driving last night...
and all i have to say for myself is... ____________________________.