Jul 29, 2003 05:57
I got called bitter and jaded tonight. It was weird for someone to actually say it. I know I'm bitter, but I've never had someone pissed off at me and say that. Well, so what if I'm bitter, I have so many reasons to be.
You know who you are:
I don't hate you and I'm not angry for what you did, I have no reason to be, we hardly even talk. But I am disappointed. You're a good friend, and I care about you a lot. You're a good person and you're different than the rest. What happened was just a let down to me. I just expected more out of you I guess. I'm not holding this against you, it's not my place to, you didn't hurt me. I just feel for the girl because I've been in her shoes, and it sucks, it sucks a lot. It makes me sad that this happened, but it's your life and it's not my place to tell you what you did was right or wrong. There's also no point for me to beat you up for it, you're beating yourself up good enough. You made your mistake, no learn from it. Everyone is entitled to one mistake. You hate what you did, you feel like shit, learn from it. Don't regret what you did, because regret is a pointless emotion that will do no more than cause you stress. Don't regret something that you can apply to future decisions. What you did is something you would have done eventually anyway. Almost every guy does what you did at least once in their life, and every girl messes up like she did or like I did. Just don't become one of those guys who likes it and becomes everything you say you hate, because I know you're a better person than that.
I'm here if you need me. I might be harsh, and bitter, and jaded, and a bit bitchy- but I'm still here for you, and you can trust I'll be honest with you. Don't let this mistake eat you away. "Sleep it off, it's easier in the morning."
xo