Crossing out the first five letters in discomfort still doesnt kill the word
So finally this piece of shit year is coming to an end, ive always said that i would never regret anything i did in my life, and for the first time I can honestly say I regret something, it pisses me off that i let my self get so fucked up the last few months, and iam pissed at my self,but it ends now, cause come January 1st 2004 my ass is gonna get shit together to go back to school, get a job, and get a car ASAP! I dont know what the fuck i have been doing the last few months but the shit needs to end.
Iam gonna be cutting people out of my life that dont have any meaning, people that are holding me down and holding me back are out, I have enough friends and family of people that care about me,love me and wanna see me succedd and treat me the way i deserve to be treated, everyone else can go fuck themselves.
I cant wait for this fucking holiday season to be over, so i can go about my shit the way i want to, iam sick of having to pretend to be happy and smiling since thanksgiving, iam thankful for my friends, and my family thats all, I have nothing else to be thankful for, oh yeah and cigarettes( i dont know how i would survive without cigarettes.
This year definetely started out really really good, and then the next thing BAM! everything is fucked and everyone sux, family had to move, girlfriend had to change into someone i dont even know anymore, South Carolina( I hate this state) everything sux, and in the middle of all this shit people want you to decorate a fucking tree, fuck the tree, fuck the lights, I just want it to be over.
This past weekend was alot of fun, saturday night megan had a party, so of course i rolled up on that shit, i decided to get drunk and pour beer over peoples heads, and then i tried to fight some people, God iam fun! I havent been in a good fight in a while, and i really wanna hit someone lately!
Last Thursday i went to see This Day Forward's last LI show, it was sad, those doods are a good time, we had lots of fun with them on tour, it sux i wont get to see them again.
Now iam in South Carolina hanging with the family for Christmas, its nice to get away, and i have been up all night thinking and i really put alot of shit into perspective, I totally feel like a different person, Iam just trying to get rid of all emotions, cause iam sick of being sad,hurt,and sick. For the next few months iam gonna do something i stopped doing over the summer, and that is worry about myself, starting now my life is the most important thing to me, nothing else means shit, all that matters is school,work,and car, the rest will fall into place.
Its looking like February is gonna be a FLA month imiss those kids and i need to get down thier and see them kids!
Happy Birthday Natalie hope you have a good time
Iam gonna be cutting people out of my life that dont have any meaning, people that are holding me down and holding me back are out, I have enough friends and family of people that care about me,love me and wanna see me succedd and treat me the way i deserve to be treated, everyone else can go fuck themselves.
I cant wait for this fucking holiday season to be over, so i can go about my shit the way i want to, iam sick of having to pretend to be happy and smiling since thanksgiving, iam thankful for my friends, and my family thats all, I have nothing else to be thankful for, oh yeah and cigarettes( i dont know how i would survive without cigarettes.
This year definetely started out really really good, and then the next thing BAM! everything is fucked and everyone sux, family had to move, girlfriend had to change into someone i dont even know anymore, South Carolina( I hate this state) everything sux, and in the middle of all this shit people want you to decorate a fucking tree, fuck the tree, fuck the lights, I just want it to be over.
This past weekend was alot of fun, saturday night megan had a party, so of course i rolled up on that shit, i decided to get drunk and pour beer over peoples heads, and then i tried to fight some people, God iam fun! I havent been in a good fight in a while, and i really wanna hit someone lately!
Last Thursday i went to see This Day Forward's last LI show, it was sad, those doods are a good time, we had lots of fun with them on tour, it sux i wont get to see them again.
Now iam in South Carolina hanging with the family for Christmas, its nice to get away, and i have been up all night thinking and i really put alot of shit into perspective, I totally feel like a different person, Iam just trying to get rid of all emotions, cause iam sick of being sad,hurt,and sick. For the next few months iam gonna do something i stopped doing over the summer, and that is worry about myself, starting now my life is the most important thing to me, nothing else means shit, all that matters is school,work,and car, the rest will fall into place.
Its looking like February is gonna be a FLA month imiss those kids and i need to get down thier and see them kids!
Happy Birthday Natalie hope you have a good time