She's Everything You Want...

[lovebunnyofdoom]

yeah so life sucks.
sean is staying with me because he wants his exhibition squad to go well.
he's afraid i'm going to cry all practice and we'll get nothing done.
yeah that's probably what will happen.
at this moment i've had enough.
i hate school.
i hate some of my classes,
especially biology.
i hate the people at school.
i hate the backstabbing friends i once knew.
i hate him sometimes.
i hate my family sometimes.

but over everything...

i hate myself at this moment.
i have no self esteem anymore.
i feel ugly and stupid.
i hardly eat anymore,
it makes me feel sick.
i don't pay attention at school.
at home i lay around.
i cry more than i should.
and i hold onto dreams that will never come true.

i don't understand how he can get away with treating me like this.
i feel empty inside.
and nothing can save me now.
everyone's giving up on me.
and i'm giving up on myself.