I did it again...im a idiot
Once again in my life i feel to fast. This always happens to me , well atleast for the past year or so. And i have no idea why i do that. And in the end i usually get hurt. Ive been doing alot of thinking the past couple days. There has been alot going on in my minde and many different emotions going on that i havent told anyone about. Things have been hard for me. I keep telling myself not to let these habbits happen again and what do i do i let it happen. I gotta stick to my guns and do what my heart tells me, no matter what. Even though i hate beeing alone i am going to have to, i got to. I cant deal with all the emotions ANYMORE!!!! I refused to get walked all over anymore! ITs time to move on and start fresh. I dunno why things neva seem to work out for me, i mean what do i do? Steph and others are right and i should start listening to them. So i think for now i am going to concentrate on my job... checking out new places to work, working hard. Nomore looking around for guys, im done! Its time for them to find me. hehe. IF i continue down the path ive been on ill never be happy, and more than anything all i want is happiness. I need to be more careful. I hope to one day find someone who respects and cares about me for who i am. Someone who i can talk to about anything. Its time that i do something for myself! People may not understand. ANd if they dont then oh well.