my plight.

[loveblueplaydoh]

ok.
so, k and i went out last night.
i really think i am falling for her a lot.
and, i think she likes me, too.
and, it was neat.
she...
i dunno.

i get so ferkin nervous around her, tho.
and, if you know me, i don't get nervous around the ladies. :)

if anything, i bust kung fu because it's just fun.
and, i don't normally get nervous around girls.
but, her?

it's like i am a transformer...
"optimus prime! transform to jello!"
and, there i am....jello.

i sweat like a fiend, my knees shake, and i stutter a lot.
i smoke like a chimney.
i don't know what to say.
i think i just blurt stuff out like a 12 year old boy.

so, i've been making her cd's to say how i feel.
and, tonight, i think she tried to hold my hand.
i say "i THINK" because, well, i got scared.
and i didn't.

my best friend said that it's prolly because i don't think i belong with her.
and i know it.
and that it's my way of reacting negatively toward her.

i dunno, tho.
'cause, i've never felt this way for this long.
and, when i look at her....
and see her smile.
i melt.

maybe i should just get her in my own environs.
where i am more secure.