I'll Teach You All This In 8 Easy Steps.
I haven't updated in FOREVER.
But that's okay.
I have a mini headache right now. Yesterday's was the worst.
So, lately life's been pretty grand. Chris and I are amazing♥ he had is 18th birthday yesterday. he bought a car and today got his permit. once he gets his insurance he's going to get his license. he loved my birthday present. i bought him 2 tickets to a chargers game and got him one of those GIGANTIC cards from 7/11. the other night we said i love you to each other. i thought he said something along the lines of "i love you like a friend" and i started crying. damn stupid misinterpretations. i really don't want to love him because i don't want to get hurt but i realize i can't control my feelings. i also realized that it's been practically five months that we've been seeing each other and more than three months since we've been official. yay. we got past the 3 month mark w/out saying i love you which was one of my rules. i can't remember the 3rd one. haha.
i realized i need to stop hating my mom. the worst disease in the world is hate, and the only way to conquer that is love. and i don't want to hate anybody. but i need to forgive her first, and i don't think i can do that just yet. and i know i'll never be able to forget. maybe some day.
i'm going to dye my hair before school again. so, vote; brown or blonde?
This song is so me. Or at least was me. I'm not sure yet.
"8 Easy Steps" by Alanis Morissette
how to stay paralyzed by fear of adandonment
how to defer to men in solve-able predicaments
how to control someone to be a carbon copy of you
how to have that not work and have them run away from you
how to keep people at arm's length and never get too close
how to mistrust the ones you supposedly love the most
how to pretend you're fine and don't need help from anyone
how to feel worthless unless you're serving or helping someone
i'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
a course of a lifetime you'll never forget
i'll show you how to in eight easy steps
i'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
how to hate women when you're supposed to be a feminist
how to play all pious when you're really a hypocrite
how to hate God when you're a pray-er and a spiritualist
how to sabotage your fantasies by fears of success
i'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
a course of a lifetime you'll never forget
i'll show you how to in eight easy steps
i'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
i've been doing research for years
i've been practicing my ass off
i've been training my whole life for this moment (i swear to you)
culminating just to be this this well-versed leader before you
i'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
a course of a lifetime you'll never forget
i'll show you how to in eight easy steps
i'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
how to lie to yourself and thereby to everyone else
how to keep smiling when you're thinking of killing yourself
how to numb a la holic to avoid going within
how to stay stuck in blue by blaming them for everything
i'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
a course of a lifetime you'll never forget
i'll show you how to in eight easy steps
i'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
But that's okay.
I have a mini headache right now. Yesterday's was the worst.
So, lately life's been pretty grand. Chris and I are amazing♥ he had is 18th birthday yesterday. he bought a car and today got his permit. once he gets his insurance he's going to get his license. he loved my birthday present. i bought him 2 tickets to a chargers game and got him one of those GIGANTIC cards from 7/11. the other night we said i love you to each other. i thought he said something along the lines of "i love you like a friend" and i started crying. damn stupid misinterpretations. i really don't want to love him because i don't want to get hurt but i realize i can't control my feelings. i also realized that it's been practically five months that we've been seeing each other and more than three months since we've been official. yay. we got past the 3 month mark w/out saying i love you which was one of my rules. i can't remember the 3rd one. haha.
i realized i need to stop hating my mom. the worst disease in the world is hate, and the only way to conquer that is love. and i don't want to hate anybody. but i need to forgive her first, and i don't think i can do that just yet. and i know i'll never be able to forget. maybe some day.
i'm going to dye my hair before school again. so, vote; brown or blonde?
This song is so me. Or at least was me. I'm not sure yet.
"8 Easy Steps" by Alanis Morissette
how to stay paralyzed by fear of adandonment
how to defer to men in solve-able predicaments
how to control someone to be a carbon copy of you
how to have that not work and have them run away from you
how to keep people at arm's length and never get too close
how to mistrust the ones you supposedly love the most
how to pretend you're fine and don't need help from anyone
how to feel worthless unless you're serving or helping someone
i'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
a course of a lifetime you'll never forget
i'll show you how to in eight easy steps
i'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
how to hate women when you're supposed to be a feminist
how to play all pious when you're really a hypocrite
how to hate God when you're a pray-er and a spiritualist
how to sabotage your fantasies by fears of success
i'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
a course of a lifetime you'll never forget
i'll show you how to in eight easy steps
i'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
i've been doing research for years
i've been practicing my ass off
i've been training my whole life for this moment (i swear to you)
culminating just to be this this well-versed leader before you
i'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
a course of a lifetime you'll never forget
i'll show you how to in eight easy steps
i'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
how to lie to yourself and thereby to everyone else
how to keep smiling when you're thinking of killing yourself
how to numb a la holic to avoid going within
how to stay stuck in blue by blaming them for everything
i'll teach you all this in eight easy steps
a course of a lifetime you'll never forget
i'll show you how to in eight easy steps
i'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best