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i am in computer app right now and i am really bored...i have a project do monday in here but i have nothing to do right now...i have the bestfriends in the world...they proved that to me wednesday night when i was at my lowest point they did not judge me they were there and where my sholder to cry on when i was braking down...they really proved to me that they were always going to be there and that they loved me very much...i love them too...i am glad that they are here and i dont have to act like something im not when im around them...and even though i am really stupid and random somethimes they dont care and i love that.
okay well what they were there for me wednesday was that i was breaking down because i have felt ashamed of the way i have been living...well you see i know that i am a christian and that Jesus is my savior...but i have felt like a coward as a christian because i feel like i havent stood up and defended God when people start talking bed...i would just sit there and not say anything at all...i wasnt doing anything wrong..but i wasnt taking action and letting it be know what i believe and that it makes me really mad when people talk about something like that...it was really hitting me hard wednesday night and i broke down...i began to pray that God would give me the strength to stand up to these people i have said nothing to...i dont want people to look at me and not know what i stand for... thats what made me sad...now i can stand up to some people...those are the people that i know well and know that stuff like that bothers me...but i have been hanging out with a girl right now and i have said nothing to her at all...like she dissed my church and all i said was that i liked it...i didnt tell her to stop or any thing and i wish i had because the longer i stood there the more angry i got but didnt do anything...i wanted to be able to stand up for God and defend the person who DIED for me...so that is what i promised God wednesday and i plan on acting it out...i know that it will be a little hard but i will feel better when i do...i mean He died on a cross for me the least i could do is stand up for Him.<3...well theres my little soap box for the day<3.talk to yall later.
okay well what they were there for me wednesday was that i was breaking down because i have felt ashamed of the way i have been living...well you see i know that i am a christian and that Jesus is my savior...but i have felt like a coward as a christian because i feel like i havent stood up and defended God when people start talking bed...i would just sit there and not say anything at all...i wasnt doing anything wrong..but i wasnt taking action and letting it be know what i believe and that it makes me really mad when people talk about something like that...it was really hitting me hard wednesday night and i broke down...i began to pray that God would give me the strength to stand up to these people i have said nothing to...i dont want people to look at me and not know what i stand for... thats what made me sad...now i can stand up to some people...those are the people that i know well and know that stuff like that bothers me...but i have been hanging out with a girl right now and i have said nothing to her at all...like she dissed my church and all i said was that i liked it...i didnt tell her to stop or any thing and i wish i had because the longer i stood there the more angry i got but didnt do anything...i wanted to be able to stand up for God and defend the person who DIED for me...so that is what i promised God wednesday and i plan on acting it out...i know that it will be a little hard but i will feel better when i do...i mean He died on a cross for me the least i could do is stand up for Him.<3...well theres my little soap box for the day<3.talk to yall later.