Long time, no type!
I'm away in a far off land called myspace xD, thats where i'm mostly at so i can talk to a few people i know that are no longer on LJ. Nothing much has been going on really gained a job, then lose the job >D Same ol Same ol. I still have this dull little life that is still bothering me.I wish to travel but without funds i can not go anywhere =/. College is a no show, I try to get back in and for some reason i have to pull a stunt to quit my job. Also i have a habit of doing it at a bad time >>. I truly wish i could go see my friend before she goes off to japan and i can't T-T. it really does hurt me I have promised her for a long time and i keep breakin it. I think one of the 2 reason i can not go is because well.... like i said before i have no money x-x. Second is because of my insecurity to show myself to her. I always hated the way i look like,freakin weight ><, even thought she told me it didn't really matter what i looked like. I just don't want her to see me at this state! I even went on a diet that well made me starve for several weeks and it didn't really bring the weight down >>. I think i have to much stress in my life right now that i freak out and do things i shouldn't do like Quiting the good job i had with all my friends that worked there. But i did have my reason to quit not relating to stress. I did go see my mother on mothers day and my grand parents and uncle at the cemetery. Nice and quiet there. It does get breezy there once u arrive as if they know your coming to see them, almost like a friendly welcome. I do tend to stay there for a hour or so, just thinking about the good ol times! *sigh* If your reading which ios more likely one person xD, i tend type in random things that just pop in to mind..... so yeah :P. Oh well as long as a few things is out of my system na!