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im still confused. i fel a whole bunch of things all at the same time. ;;depressed, confused, unloved, untrustworthy, annoyed, etc.;; i have a headache that just wont go away.; i love my friends soo much, but i feel like i should be mad at some of them for certain reasons, but i dont know why.; my family is pissing me off: annoying brother that never shuts up and always gets his way. screaming mother who thinks her life sucks and always lets the brother get whatever he wants. lazy-ass stepdad who doesnt do shit and makes my mom do everything and also, once again, lets the brother have whatever he wants [& more]. and all any of them do is go completely against me and blame me for every little thing that goes wrong.
im just sick of it all. i dont like this. it sucks. my life sucks. i should stop taking things, and people, for granted and be thankful for having friends and family that do love me.. but not all of them always really DO act like they love me as much as they say they do. half of my class sucks. and its mostly the guys that do. i cant wait to get out of this school. i love the 7th graders. most of them are there for me.. all the way<3. and most of the girls in my class are [and are always gonna be] there for me<33. but some of them can be really abckstabbing and 2-faced.
i hate writing loong-ass livejournal entries like these. they somehow make me feel better about my life though. it makes me realize that theres someway that i can sorta express myself [wow that sounds dorky lol] and it makes me feel sorta better about things.
another thing that bothers me alot, is when you want something [or someONE] really badly, but you can have it. then it just hurts inside. i hate hurting.
i dont like it when girls are always saying stuff like "never cry over a guy, they're not worth it." well, if guys aren't worth our tears, than what is? because theres nothing else to look forward to in life than to [A] have a good marriage [B] get a good job [C] be all around happy. but to be all around happy, you need to find that one guy thats perfect for you, and make a living with a job --with that guy right beside you to help you through it all the way. guys might not see it exxactly the same way, but if there are any guys reading this, you might as well agree on this, exxcept that you want a girl there to stick with you through all your rough times. so i go completely against the rule of not crying over a boy. because it is definitely worth it to cry over something you love.. and that does include loving a guy. even if you know that the relationship isnt going to last forever, you can still cry over the fact that youve lost something that you once loved. ive only had 2 boyfriends in my life, and no matter how much i hate them now [for specific reasons] i will always have memories in my head, and i will always remember those little things that made me like them in the first place.
that goes for all the guys ive just had "crushes" on too. if you've had a "crush", than there must've been something about them that made you like them in that way? yeah, its not really a big deal if you find out that your "crush" likes someone else, its not the end of the world.. but you;re stil lgoing to be upset about it! ..no doubt. and [this might sound really retarted, but] the best way to express your feelings [especially when youre upset] is to just let it all out and cry about it. even if that means just shedding one single tear, it still shows that you cared about that person/thing that you cried for.
well, im happy that i got to write about alot of this shit. it made me feel really cheesy & retarted, but its true --at least in my case. i hope its useful for some of you too.
comment on this one and lemme know what you think. <\3
im just sick of it all. i dont like this. it sucks. my life sucks. i should stop taking things, and people, for granted and be thankful for having friends and family that do love me.. but not all of them always really DO act like they love me as much as they say they do. half of my class sucks. and its mostly the guys that do. i cant wait to get out of this school. i love the 7th graders. most of them are there for me.. all the way<3. and most of the girls in my class are [and are always gonna be] there for me<33. but some of them can be really abckstabbing and 2-faced.
i hate writing loong-ass livejournal entries like these. they somehow make me feel better about my life though. it makes me realize that theres someway that i can sorta express myself [wow that sounds dorky lol] and it makes me feel sorta better about things.
another thing that bothers me alot, is when you want something [or someONE] really badly, but you can have it. then it just hurts inside. i hate hurting.
i dont like it when girls are always saying stuff like "never cry over a guy, they're not worth it." well, if guys aren't worth our tears, than what is? because theres nothing else to look forward to in life than to [A] have a good marriage [B] get a good job [C] be all around happy. but to be all around happy, you need to find that one guy thats perfect for you, and make a living with a job --with that guy right beside you to help you through it all the way. guys might not see it exxactly the same way, but if there are any guys reading this, you might as well agree on this, exxcept that you want a girl there to stick with you through all your rough times. so i go completely against the rule of not crying over a boy. because it is definitely worth it to cry over something you love.. and that does include loving a guy. even if you know that the relationship isnt going to last forever, you can still cry over the fact that youve lost something that you once loved. ive only had 2 boyfriends in my life, and no matter how much i hate them now [for specific reasons] i will always have memories in my head, and i will always remember those little things that made me like them in the first place.
that goes for all the guys ive just had "crushes" on too. if you've had a "crush", than there must've been something about them that made you like them in that way? yeah, its not really a big deal if you find out that your "crush" likes someone else, its not the end of the world.. but you;re stil lgoing to be upset about it! ..no doubt. and [this might sound really retarted, but] the best way to express your feelings [especially when youre upset] is to just let it all out and cry about it. even if that means just shedding one single tear, it still shows that you cared about that person/thing that you cried for.
well, im happy that i got to write about alot of this shit. it made me feel really cheesy & retarted, but its true --at least in my case. i hope its useful for some of you too.
comment on this one and lemme know what you think. <\3