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i dont quite understand the irrationality found behind my emotions. one second i'm making myself out to be someone who's simply interested in playing the game, in being content with any single result, even friendship. but the second i find out that you want friendship too, i become uncontent and feel that similar feeling that i haven't felt for months. the properties of my emotions never cease to befuddle me. we both want the same thing, but i guess you're not ready for trying anything yet. we'll leave last night to us and leave it the rest of the chapter to be determined by you.