because Happiness is...
PJ's body next to mine. perfect scores on tests and papers. having a drink with my mother in Paris, France. Colin Dean's spaghetti. reading a good book and then discussing it in Cindy's class. Katie, Gladys, and unknown destinations. My sister's bedroom in the summer. Pretending to be a chef writer waitress model. getting to new high levels of solitaire. back rubs, foot rubs, and body massages. having deep conversations. realizing that I'd rather have real, settled-in, comfortable love with PJ than a giddy feeling of crushing on him. sloe gin fizzes and long island iced teas. getting phone calls from Mike after he goes out. baking pies. Mom's egg rolls and Grandma's chicken corn soup. good smelling soap. placebo. 3 A.M. nights with my sister. the yearbook room senior year. taking a cute picture. rimrock times a thousand. writing letters to my loved ones. getting things in the mail. holding hands. presents under the Christmas tree. growing up with a sister. volunteering for quad rugby. being loved. sleeping in PJ's bed. whore-spitals and john vag pumpkins going up and down on the elevator. accents. black and white love photographs. rear window. snowy days under covers. kevin spacey movies. winter. catching snowflakes on my tongue. girls night with Beth and ranting. being crazy with Beth. Jimmy at the tub. driving. pretty sunsets. Alaska. airplane rides. sleeping in. movie nights at mike's. driving to olean to go shopping or to see a movie. pan's labyrinth. animal prints. musicals. watching my sister perform. kissing PJ. loving, wholly and completely, PJ and what we have together. France. eating healthy and seeing the weight loss. "nights I'll never remember with friends I'll never forget." looking closer. cancelled classes. make out sessions. listening to PJ's heartbeat while we watch a movie. zebras. doggies. perks of being a wallflower. new books. 11:11. hope. Thanksgiving dinner. sparkling grape juice. the smell of (clean) babies. holding a baby. doing the best that I can. playing Kings. realizing what true love is.