knows how to love you without being told..
so many things running through my head..
1. School is slowly but surely kicking my ass. My super goal this semester is to get a 4.0, but with Macro being the demon-slut that it is, I doubt I'll make it. I'm not giving up yet, but Macro is.. a beast. Accounting isn't too bad, considering I thought a night class would kill me. And French is tough, but I work at it so it's not bad, and I have an A. Cindy's class.. god, I love that class so much. But .. hardly anyone gets an A in her classes. Maybe now that it's Interpreting Lit and not CWII, it'll make a difference.
2. I have an interview for a job, and I NEED it. I hated last year when I would get interviews but no damn calls back. At least have the decency to tell me I didn't get it, people. It's to be a staff member at our new LGBT resource center (Lesbian Gay Bisexual Transgender, for those of you who don't know) and the woman interviewing me is a kick-ass former professor. I'm not sure how many other people applied for the job, but I feel like I have a good chance. My interview is Tuesday, so we'll see.
3. I'm really, truly, exceptionally happy with PJ. We've been having lots of trouble lately, but I think it's just one of those times where you fight and cry every night and yell and get pissed off and walk away but realize it's so worth it when you've resolved your issues at last. And he's really kind of the only constant thing in my life right now, which is EXACTLY what I need.. I'm not sure he knows that, maybe I should tell him? Anyway, I think we're slowly building ourselves back up, I'm at a point where I know exactly what I want from us and I think he just might need more time to figure that out..
4. I miss home so much. I can't wait to go home. My family just got a (CUTE) new puppy last Thursday, but I feel like that was 16 days ago. I can't wait to see my sister on stage again, and hopefully see my aunt and uncle, and REALLY hopefully, see my grandma. I just can't wait to see Katie and Mike and be in Bradford where the leaves DO change when fall comes and maybe make a pile of leaves and jump in them? We're all going on a picnic to Rimrock and that will be amazing. I just want to share secrets with Leah and tuck PJ in for the night in my bed in my room.
5. I think that either this year will be a year of no personal change whatsoever, or a real turning point in my life. It's too early to tell, even though I've been at school a month. It flew by. Although I know I can't just spend all my free time with PJ, it's what I want to do. We might have some slight drama every now and then, but I don't really get sick of him. We play games and wrestle and just goof off and being with him is really so carefree, I love it.
"How I go" Yellowcard
you keep the air in my lungs
floating along as a melody comes
and my heart beats like timpani drums
keeping the time while a symphony strums
and I'm drying out, crying out
this isn't how I go
hurry now, lay me down
and let these waters flow…
let it flow
son I am not everything
you thought that I would be.
but every story I have told is part of me
son, I leave you now, but you have so much more to do
and every story I have told is part of you.
1. School is slowly but surely kicking my ass. My super goal this semester is to get a 4.0, but with Macro being the demon-slut that it is, I doubt I'll make it. I'm not giving up yet, but Macro is.. a beast. Accounting isn't too bad, considering I thought a night class would kill me. And French is tough, but I work at it so it's not bad, and I have an A. Cindy's class.. god, I love that class so much. But .. hardly anyone gets an A in her classes. Maybe now that it's Interpreting Lit and not CWII, it'll make a difference.
2. I have an interview for a job, and I NEED it. I hated last year when I would get interviews but no damn calls back. At least have the decency to tell me I didn't get it, people. It's to be a staff member at our new LGBT resource center (Lesbian Gay Bisexual Transgender, for those of you who don't know) and the woman interviewing me is a kick-ass former professor. I'm not sure how many other people applied for the job, but I feel like I have a good chance. My interview is Tuesday, so we'll see.
3. I'm really, truly, exceptionally happy with PJ. We've been having lots of trouble lately, but I think it's just one of those times where you fight and cry every night and yell and get pissed off and walk away but realize it's so worth it when you've resolved your issues at last. And he's really kind of the only constant thing in my life right now, which is EXACTLY what I need.. I'm not sure he knows that, maybe I should tell him? Anyway, I think we're slowly building ourselves back up, I'm at a point where I know exactly what I want from us and I think he just might need more time to figure that out..
4. I miss home so much. I can't wait to go home. My family just got a (CUTE) new puppy last Thursday, but I feel like that was 16 days ago. I can't wait to see my sister on stage again, and hopefully see my aunt and uncle, and REALLY hopefully, see my grandma. I just can't wait to see Katie and Mike and be in Bradford where the leaves DO change when fall comes and maybe make a pile of leaves and jump in them? We're all going on a picnic to Rimrock and that will be amazing. I just want to share secrets with Leah and tuck PJ in for the night in my bed in my room.
5. I think that either this year will be a year of no personal change whatsoever, or a real turning point in my life. It's too early to tell, even though I've been at school a month. It flew by. Although I know I can't just spend all my free time with PJ, it's what I want to do. We might have some slight drama every now and then, but I don't really get sick of him. We play games and wrestle and just goof off and being with him is really so carefree, I love it.
"How I go" Yellowcard
you keep the air in my lungs
floating along as a melody comes
and my heart beats like timpani drums
keeping the time while a symphony strums
and I'm drying out, crying out
this isn't how I go
hurry now, lay me down
and let these waters flow…
let it flow
son I am not everything
you thought that I would be.
but every story I have told is part of me
son, I leave you now, but you have so much more to do
and every story I have told is part of you.