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We had a slight tornado thing in my town, so my internet was down for a few days, I pretty much died...since I'm just cool and thats like all I do with my time, but haha it's back.
A whole lot of things have happend recently and ahh just so much stuff. My family has been having some money problems, and it's gotten to the point where I had to quit team. I'm still going to skate, just not team anymore...even though team is mostly my favorite part about skating. I never really realized things were so tight with money though and my mom and dad figured out that they spend about $15,000 on skating for me each year...thats a lot. I sprained my wrist yesterday and we were waiting in the hospital when my mom was saying how she didn't really want to go to my cousins bachelorete party, I knew that she really wanted to go, but the reason she said that is because she didn't want to spend money. Recently my mom has been saying how tight money is and stuff and I realized, why is she letting me skate if we don't have the money for it, I mean I just can't do that. She called Chris and talked with her about it, Chris suggested I stop taking lessons and just skate team, but thats just not going to work and I feel that I wont get any better by doing that. I'm going to miss SO many things about that team...I'm going to miss those early morning practices that sucked how I had to wake up so early, but then all of us getting slap happy and making the practices fun, I'm going to miss the thrill of competing and trying really hard to beat the jazz. I'm going to miss getting all pissed because the Jazz won for no reason and just wanting to beat them even more, I'm going to miss those crazy nights at the hotels, staying out past curfew, partying in peoples rooms, ordering room service, I'm going to miss team bonding where we all just get really really close, I'm going to miss all of my best friends who were so welcoming when I came and who really made team fun for me...I'm just going to miss SO many things and it's really upseting. I did a lot of crying, last night and today...I'm just really sad about the whole thing :/ There are good things though, I can sleep in on the weekends like a normal kid, I can hang out with my friends whenever and not have my time always around skating, I can go to all school events and actually be apart of school activities, I can tryout for anything that I want and be able to make the practices for sure....just so many things. I talked to a lot of girls from team today...they all are planning on raising money, like having car washes and selling things so I can come back. It's just soo sweet, even though that wont be enough for me to come back, but I'm really glad that they are thinking of me and they miss me too...
ahh soo stressful, I'm crying right now :(
A whole lot of things have happend recently and ahh just so much stuff. My family has been having some money problems, and it's gotten to the point where I had to quit team. I'm still going to skate, just not team anymore...even though team is mostly my favorite part about skating. I never really realized things were so tight with money though and my mom and dad figured out that they spend about $15,000 on skating for me each year...thats a lot. I sprained my wrist yesterday and we were waiting in the hospital when my mom was saying how she didn't really want to go to my cousins bachelorete party, I knew that she really wanted to go, but the reason she said that is because she didn't want to spend money. Recently my mom has been saying how tight money is and stuff and I realized, why is she letting me skate if we don't have the money for it, I mean I just can't do that. She called Chris and talked with her about it, Chris suggested I stop taking lessons and just skate team, but thats just not going to work and I feel that I wont get any better by doing that. I'm going to miss SO many things about that team...I'm going to miss those early morning practices that sucked how I had to wake up so early, but then all of us getting slap happy and making the practices fun, I'm going to miss the thrill of competing and trying really hard to beat the jazz. I'm going to miss getting all pissed because the Jazz won for no reason and just wanting to beat them even more, I'm going to miss those crazy nights at the hotels, staying out past curfew, partying in peoples rooms, ordering room service, I'm going to miss team bonding where we all just get really really close, I'm going to miss all of my best friends who were so welcoming when I came and who really made team fun for me...I'm just going to miss SO many things and it's really upseting. I did a lot of crying, last night and today...I'm just really sad about the whole thing :/ There are good things though, I can sleep in on the weekends like a normal kid, I can hang out with my friends whenever and not have my time always around skating, I can go to all school events and actually be apart of school activities, I can tryout for anything that I want and be able to make the practices for sure....just so many things. I talked to a lot of girls from team today...they all are planning on raising money, like having car washes and selling things so I can come back. It's just soo sweet, even though that wont be enough for me to come back, but I'm really glad that they are thinking of me and they miss me too...
ahh soo stressful, I'm crying right now :(