A little unsure yet again
I felt better about things with Joe earlier this week, but now that a few days have gone by, I just want to move on. The weird thing about it is that I am not panicky at all, and I am just accepting it for what it is. It's over. I am fairly sure of that, and it's ok. I have a great guy who is really into me, and I have a fullfilling life to lead. Joe is in my past. Perhaps he is in my future as well, but for now that is how I see him...only in the past. It's just hard to believe that after what he has said and done, it can ever be back to where it used to be. From here on out I will not contact him in any way. I'm done. It's up to God now, and I'm not sure what His plans are for the both of us. Maybe Joe and I are through...although something tells me that is not the case...but for the time being, we are done. That is how I am going to treat it. For now I am content with seeing Jeff and living my life. Although to be honest, I would be happier with Joe, but I need to push that from my mind so that time can fly by faster and I can move on. It's in God's hands. Whatever is meant to be is meant to be. Joe may not be the one like I thought. Perhaps there is someone better for me out there, and I haven't met him yet...or maybe I will fall madly in love with Jeff. It takes me a while to fall in love, but even longer when I feel I am in love with someone else. For now I just need to live in the present and not worry about my future or my relationship..or lack there of...with Joe.