Me again. Help please
I made this post in April.
That's it I think I'm going insane. FML I was slowly getting better, but now I'm back at the bottom again.
I'm sure you remember my boyfriend issues, and you may remember we work in the same office as he is even my boss. I left because I had no choice, he was always terrible to me. And a week later he was with this new girl he would not tell me about. And every day of the last few months have been like hell at work. Me fighting back tears and him with his new girlfriend being as happy as can be.
But wait! After digging a little on facebook, I found out who his girlfriend is!! At first I thought I was wrong, but after more digging, nope! I am 100% right. You wouldn't believe she's sitting 3 meters away from me right now as I'm writing this! Yeah she's a girl from the same office and he's also her boss! But I saw a facebook post she made on her friend's page. It was a picture of a lobster and she wrote "Careful, my David might think it's cruel". Ugh! He's a vegetarian, that's why she said that, but man! The tone of it. "My" David. "Look at me, I am reminding you I have a boyfriend and that he's a vegetarian!"
AAAAH I don't know if I should talk to her or not. It wouldn't end well.
She doesn't know about me, but I can't believe he has his ex and his current girlfriend sitting together like this! She's a normal, average, younger, shy and quiet Chinese girl. Apart from the Chinese part, she is EXACTLY LIKE ME! Dresses like me, talks like me, same age. Why replace me with the same thing?? I'm sure he preys on the weak! She was born in China, I don't know since when she's in Canada. Forgive me this stereotype, but Asian girls are known to be submissive. This girl will let him hurt her without doing anything and maybe blaming herself for it. That's the vibe I get from her. She'll never be brave enough to leave him.
I never even saw them interact all that much! I saw them talk and he was nice to her but I thought nothing of it. I am sure he doesn't love her! I don't know her a lot, I'm sure she's a nice girl. It's not her fault, I don't hate her. It's him. I'm SURE this is just to get back at me. Or it's because he's got to much pride to remained dumped and stay alone. I don't believe he's in love with her. She's been working here for like a year and I don't see when this could have happened! Why her?? No offense to her, but I don't see what he could see in her. Not him. He's using her. I'm sure of it. He is a sociopath. He matches the description perfectly. No regrets, no remorse, uses his charm and charisma to get what he wants.
The wise part of me is saying I should ignore it and do nothing. The rest of me wants to talk to the girl and tell her all the horrible things he did to me, what he's really like. She won't believe me, and then she's going to tell him I said this, and he's going to say I'm crazy, that's not how it happened, it's not true etc. Part of me wants to save her from pain, part of me just wants to break his relationship. I'm fighting the urge to send him hate mail too. I want confront him but he's been completely ignoring me AAAAAAAAAAARG! I want to quit this job, but I can't. I'll never find a job this good, and with my mortgage I HAVE to keep this salary. I want to get away from everything!
I HATE THIS! I HATE HIM! I JUST WANT TO BE OKAY AGAIN!! WHAT SHOULD I DO!! EVERYBODY MEANS WELL, BUT NOBODY UNDERSTANDS WHAT I'M FEELING! IT'S NOT THAT EASY TO FORGET! YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH!
That's it I think I'm going insane. FML I was slowly getting better, but now I'm back at the bottom again.
I'm sure you remember my boyfriend issues, and you may remember we work in the same office as he is even my boss. I left because I had no choice, he was always terrible to me. And a week later he was with this new girl he would not tell me about. And every day of the last few months have been like hell at work. Me fighting back tears and him with his new girlfriend being as happy as can be.
But wait! After digging a little on facebook, I found out who his girlfriend is!! At first I thought I was wrong, but after more digging, nope! I am 100% right. You wouldn't believe she's sitting 3 meters away from me right now as I'm writing this! Yeah she's a girl from the same office and he's also her boss! But I saw a facebook post she made on her friend's page. It was a picture of a lobster and she wrote "Careful, my David might think it's cruel". Ugh! He's a vegetarian, that's why she said that, but man! The tone of it. "My" David. "Look at me, I am reminding you I have a boyfriend and that he's a vegetarian!"
AAAAH I don't know if I should talk to her or not. It wouldn't end well.
She doesn't know about me, but I can't believe he has his ex and his current girlfriend sitting together like this! She's a normal, average, younger, shy and quiet Chinese girl. Apart from the Chinese part, she is EXACTLY LIKE ME! Dresses like me, talks like me, same age. Why replace me with the same thing?? I'm sure he preys on the weak! She was born in China, I don't know since when she's in Canada. Forgive me this stereotype, but Asian girls are known to be submissive. This girl will let him hurt her without doing anything and maybe blaming herself for it. That's the vibe I get from her. She'll never be brave enough to leave him.
I never even saw them interact all that much! I saw them talk and he was nice to her but I thought nothing of it. I am sure he doesn't love her! I don't know her a lot, I'm sure she's a nice girl. It's not her fault, I don't hate her. It's him. I'm SURE this is just to get back at me. Or it's because he's got to much pride to remained dumped and stay alone. I don't believe he's in love with her. She's been working here for like a year and I don't see when this could have happened! Why her?? No offense to her, but I don't see what he could see in her. Not him. He's using her. I'm sure of it. He is a sociopath. He matches the description perfectly. No regrets, no remorse, uses his charm and charisma to get what he wants.
The wise part of me is saying I should ignore it and do nothing. The rest of me wants to talk to the girl and tell her all the horrible things he did to me, what he's really like. She won't believe me, and then she's going to tell him I said this, and he's going to say I'm crazy, that's not how it happened, it's not true etc. Part of me wants to save her from pain, part of me just wants to break his relationship. I'm fighting the urge to send him hate mail too. I want confront him but he's been completely ignoring me AAAAAAAAAAARG! I want to quit this job, but I can't. I'll never find a job this good, and with my mortgage I HAVE to keep this salary. I want to get away from everything!
I HATE THIS! I HATE HIM! I JUST WANT TO BE OKAY AGAIN!! WHAT SHOULD I DO!! EVERYBODY MEANS WELL, BUT NOBODY UNDERSTANDS WHAT I'M FEELING! IT'S NOT THAT EASY TO FORGET! YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH!