???life???
I just realized, life is shit! but let me tell you, i'm not going to let it take me for a ride anymore! i watched "How To Deal" again today, (i watch it when ever im sad) and thought, i just don't belong. i'm honestly thinking about moving to Onsted and going to Adrian College in the Fall that's where i wanted to go in the first place, but since my dad Went and Taught at EMU "I have to go there" i mean, if i move to Onsted into the apt. next to the school, i can drive to Adrian like a 15 min drive. plus i would have a great Job as a Full time instr. there! but lets face it if i move my parents would fight about it and because i'm not here to split them up they would split up for good! plus my dad needs me here! GRRR here is one of life choices again! i mean i doubt anyone here would miss me, will at least not as much as they miss me in Onsted! Adrian is a great teaching school, yet it is prices! i have been waiting for this chance for so long! I don't know what to do!
as of now i have 2 jobs, no money and i'm just sitting here with nothing to do! for the past week i have tried to go to Cedar Point, but no one can go with me!I so depressed, my doctors told me i cant let myself get this way but, its just so hard some times! (for those of you who don,t know i'm Bio-polar) i can't wait in til next spring/summer when i move to Florida for my internship! then maybe things here might have changed for matured! its not the people its the surroundings!
as of now i have 2 jobs, no money and i'm just sitting here with nothing to do! for the past week i have tried to go to Cedar Point, but no one can go with me!I so depressed, my doctors told me i cant let myself get this way but, its just so hard some times! (for those of you who don,t know i'm Bio-polar) i can't wait in til next spring/summer when i move to Florida for my internship! then maybe things here might have changed for matured! its not the people its the surroundings!