Great things are happening :)
Well I might need another job, that or these damn hunters need to come back SOON because they are fucking me over lol. I work 3 jobs right now, one of which the days I work we have shuffleboard. Our main customers are out hunting so I haven't worked like at all! :( But on the plus side I have a wonderful countdown that I'm VERY VERY VERY EXCITED ABOUT!
2 days ---> bed comes
4 days ---> Thanksgiving
9 days ---> moved in
12 days ---> party
13 days ---> 25th birthday
25 days ---> last day of school
33 days ---> Christmas
39 days ---> New Years eve
As far as Chris goes, I've completely given up. Yes I love him to death and I always will but I am done wasting my time, energy, tears and heart on this shit. He's been difference since June, and we havent been together since August/September. If he wants to throw away what was amazing, then so be it. If he wants to blame him changing on me, soooo be it. IF he doesn't want to be with me, there is no point in me sitting and wallowing in the sorrow. Fuck that.
So I've been dating here and there. Most of them I just dont find the attraction towards where it would be worth continuing. I feel bad but that's how it goes. The annoying part is how pathetic guys are now-a-days at taking rejection. Especially after they know my situation and I've layed everything down for them. Saying how I just got out of a relationship, not really looking to jump into a new one, that this date doesnt mean anything more than just friends going out or getting to know each other. That they are in no way my boyfriend and that I am dating other people. Which one thought that meant sleeping with them all yet I wasnt even sleeping with his jealous dumbass. Needless to say he's gone lol. Seriously I dont get guys now-a-days. More and more like women! It makes me pretty sick I must say. When a chick says she doesnt see herself with you in the long run, BELIEVE HER dammit lol.
I've also come to realize who my real friends are once again lol. It's pathetic how people are. Seriously, why waste my time or your time? Oh well, no sweat on my back over it. Just shocked I held these people in higher respects. I should have known not to, but alas that's who I am. Too trusting and open minded.
Well besides that stuff I'm really excited for the next 2 weeks. With moving out and my party; its all going to be an amazing time. I know it will be hard moving out cause I really cannot afford it but this is what I need. All these changes are good for me. I'm done letting certain things or people in my life hold me back from doing what I want, doing what's best for me and doing/getting what I deserve. Thus a lot of changes for me between letting go of EVERYTING and EVERYONE pointless in my past, thus moving out and doing things for MYSELF for once. I'm so excited :)