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So I lost it tonight at work. That never happens. :-/ it wasn't about work though .. it was Sam's fault.
I'm sick of not being able to talk to him for as long as I want or whenever I want to. I can't pick up the phone and call him to tell him something exciting just happened or I can't call him when I'm stressed out or upset about something and I need someone to talk to. Not just anyone but him. I hate how I cradle my phone whenever I'm expecting him to call. I hate getting the thought that if I can just get through most of the day he'll call later and I'll be able to talk to him for as long as I want. I can have as many long distant comfortable silences as I feel is necessary. I can just be able to hear his voice no matter what it's saying. I can hear him laugh and think of that georgeous smile upon his face and see his mouth going crooked when he says certain words. And then he calls later than I thought because of this or that that the army thought was necessary and then I get 10 minutes. I shouldn't be complaining because so many others have it so much worse. But I'm not in their situation, this is the only situation that I know first hand to complain about and say that it sucks.
This way of life sucks and I would never wish it upon anyone. Cherish every moment you have even if you don't love the person. Cherish the little things and remember them when they're gone. It will hurt and you will cry because it's the tiny, overlooked, crazy things that matter the most and that will be missed the most no matter what the situation is.
I'm sorry to those who do have it worst. I'm sorry to those who are without a loved one and will be for a long time. I'm sorry to the people who have not found true love but when you do remember to never let it go. Give it wings to fly but never loose sight of it because it will tear you apart. Overlook the petty problems and gain the ultimite goal of happiness because that's what truely matters and will always matter in the end. Be happy with yourself, your love, and the togetherness that you create.
Never let it go.
I'm sick of not being able to talk to him for as long as I want or whenever I want to. I can't pick up the phone and call him to tell him something exciting just happened or I can't call him when I'm stressed out or upset about something and I need someone to talk to. Not just anyone but him. I hate how I cradle my phone whenever I'm expecting him to call. I hate getting the thought that if I can just get through most of the day he'll call later and I'll be able to talk to him for as long as I want. I can have as many long distant comfortable silences as I feel is necessary. I can just be able to hear his voice no matter what it's saying. I can hear him laugh and think of that georgeous smile upon his face and see his mouth going crooked when he says certain words. And then he calls later than I thought because of this or that that the army thought was necessary and then I get 10 minutes. I shouldn't be complaining because so many others have it so much worse. But I'm not in their situation, this is the only situation that I know first hand to complain about and say that it sucks.
This way of life sucks and I would never wish it upon anyone. Cherish every moment you have even if you don't love the person. Cherish the little things and remember them when they're gone. It will hurt and you will cry because it's the tiny, overlooked, crazy things that matter the most and that will be missed the most no matter what the situation is.
I'm sorry to those who do have it worst. I'm sorry to those who are without a loved one and will be for a long time. I'm sorry to the people who have not found true love but when you do remember to never let it go. Give it wings to fly but never loose sight of it because it will tear you apart. Overlook the petty problems and gain the ultimite goal of happiness because that's what truely matters and will always matter in the end. Be happy with yourself, your love, and the togetherness that you create.
Never let it go.