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i have to fight the feeling to call you.
and i do.
surprisingly it gets harder each day.
i know you're there alone, that's not what worries me.
it's the thought that it will always be this way.
so i cry. even though it changes nothing,
and it doesn't even make me feel better anymore.
but my body is conditioned to do it, so it's done.
i want to scream at you, i want you to scream at me.
that's what i always counted on to know you still cared.
I saw your sister today and we hugged.
it's funny how little has changed between the two of us.
maybe one day they will all understand.
people make one another cry,
but that doesn't make them love each other less.
one day we wont have to lie to everyone
and maybe we can learn to be honest with ourselves.
This is probably the shittest holiday season i've had. "You say it's christmas eve, that don't mean nothing to me, just another fucked up day, just another wasted time" I HEART EVERCLEAR. (The band not the liquor.) although, some malibu rum might be good right
"I wanna get stoned now, releave my stress level
Decompress, elevate like a soul rebel
expand my mind, let my senses run free
lose track of time, let time grab a hold of me."
-daddy x from kmk
and i do.
surprisingly it gets harder each day.
i know you're there alone, that's not what worries me.
it's the thought that it will always be this way.
so i cry. even though it changes nothing,
and it doesn't even make me feel better anymore.
but my body is conditioned to do it, so it's done.
i want to scream at you, i want you to scream at me.
that's what i always counted on to know you still cared.
I saw your sister today and we hugged.
it's funny how little has changed between the two of us.
maybe one day they will all understand.
people make one another cry,
but that doesn't make them love each other less.
one day we wont have to lie to everyone
and maybe we can learn to be honest with ourselves.
This is probably the shittest holiday season i've had. "You say it's christmas eve, that don't mean nothing to me, just another fucked up day, just another wasted time" I HEART EVERCLEAR. (The band not the liquor.) although, some malibu rum might be good right
"I wanna get stoned now, releave my stress level
Decompress, elevate like a soul rebel
expand my mind, let my senses run free
lose track of time, let time grab a hold of me."
-daddy x from kmk