OtC l 32.1 Worthwhile
It isn't really a secret that I didn't think a lot of myself throughout high school. Sure, before I met Haley, I had Peyton - and I had other girls - and that made me feel good about myself. I was captain of the basketball team and that kicked ass, let me tell you. That of course led to more girls.
But, after meeting Haley, I wanted to better myself in order to be worthy for her. It wasn't working. I took steroids once. I did, I took steroids and I collapsed on the court. But, all I could think about was Haley. The minute I hit the ground, I couldn't believe I had done it. I worried about scaring Haley, leaving Haley.
The screwed up through the first half of our relationship. I almost lost her completely because she had found porn on my computer. But, she was enough for me. Haley's always been enough for me and I have never cheated on her.
I think it all comes down to how I didn't think I was worthy of Haley. That her taking a chance on me wasn't worthwhile. It was something I struggled with. It came back last year. Losing my dream really fucked up my relationship with Haley and Jamie. Can I use language? I don't...usually use language.
Anyway, I'm here where I am right now and I do know that I am worthwhile. Changing was worthwhile. Changing for the better. Haley, everything, it was worthwhile.
But, after meeting Haley, I wanted to better myself in order to be worthy for her. It wasn't working. I took steroids once. I did, I took steroids and I collapsed on the court. But, all I could think about was Haley. The minute I hit the ground, I couldn't believe I had done it. I worried about scaring Haley, leaving Haley.
The screwed up through the first half of our relationship. I almost lost her completely because she had found porn on my computer. But, she was enough for me. Haley's always been enough for me and I have never cheated on her.
I think it all comes down to how I didn't think I was worthy of Haley. That her taking a chance on me wasn't worthwhile. It was something I struggled with. It came back last year. Losing my dream really fucked up my relationship with Haley and Jamie. Can I use language? I don't...usually use language.
Anyway, I'm here where I am right now and I do know that I am worthwhile. Changing was worthwhile. Changing for the better. Haley, everything, it was worthwhile.