You wanted the best, but it wasn't me.
I can't stop thinking lately about how pretty she is. I know this sounds wrong, but trust me, it isn't. I'm not sure why he didn't make it official with her, meaning ask her out or whatever. He told me that he didn't trust her and I told him if it's not easy, then it's not right. A few days later he was "officially single". Does that mean that my opinion counts? This girl is so gorgeous though. And it scares me. A lot. I mean every girl he was ever with is pretty, or at least they're all better than I am. And I'm sure he could find a lot more. I wish I was good enough for him, more than anything. But I know that I'm not and never will be. Sometimes he acts like he feels the same way I do and others he just won't talk to me. Does that mean he's shy? I need help, desperately. But I have no one who wants to or knows what to do. I wanna tell him how I feel so bad, but when he says he doesn't feel the same way, I know how I'm gonna react. I wish I could just find out how he feels. I doubt he'll ever tell me if he liked me. But he never will, so I don't know why that just popped into my head. The funny thing is, I can picture myself with him, and being happy. Shouldn't that mean something? I really need to tell someone all the crap that's happened. It's not really anything, but it means the world to me because it's all I have. And I need to tell someone who will give me their honest opinion about it, so maybe I can form my own ideas about how to handle it and what to tell him. The next time we talk I'll say something about hanging out and we'll see what happens. I hate being on break; I don't see him and he doesn't really talk to me. Correction: He doesn't talk to me. The only time he IMed me was him asking if I was going to a show. I wonder if I was there if he would have even talked to me. What's the point of asking me if I'm going if you're not even going to talk to me or hang with me? Can someone please answer my questions?