Emily::Chad is like Britney::K-Fed or some other failed celebrity relationship
hello
so i've realized that i am over him...when i look at him i don't even see the same person that i knew, its a different guy with a different personality so i don't even care about that
i just miss having him as him. i miss all the good conversations, and the cute dates, or things he said, or just plain old memories and good times that i sure as hell will neverrr forget.
the cure to this is; having a new boyfriend, see i realize that as much as i miss Chad for who he was [i use 'was' because he isn't the same person now] i just miss having a really good realtionship with someone, i don't think it was the fact of it being with HIM as much as it was just being with a caring, romantic, and loving guy. i'm not saying a need a boyfriend to be happy, because i am very happy where i am right now without a boyfriend but what i'm saying is that while i keep telling myself i miss Chad, and i miss what Chad did and what Chad said. it's really not that at all, i miss the fact of having a good boyfriend, what a good boyfriend did, and all the good things a good boyfriend said.
honestly though it is seriously SO surreal to talk to him now, i just feel like its a guy i used to have a crush on or something, not someone that i seriously dated. thats really weird. like i think back on times when we were together and remember what its like to be with him, and it all feels like a dream, or should i say nightmare since it ended so shitfully..ha coool word. but whatever, i like making new relvations in here, whatever that means
god, i'm really pathetic lol
i'm really looking forward to the Seniors leaving, actually i'm not at all, only because seeing him like 56 times everyday only adds fuel to the fire. but seriously i don't want these Seniors to leave, someone switch them with the Juniors and have them leave and keep the current Seniors for another year, no one likes the Juniors...gayy. next year's gonna be stupid, not really, but i feel like being negative.
actually i'm just looking forward to getting our yearbooks, i'm not kidding, thats like the highlight of the school year to me. i seriously read every single page :)
and i'm excited for the fact that its the last few weeks of school which is always when crazy shit goes down like a Mercury spill and being trapped in the school till 8 or being locked out of the school in the morning or random lockdowns to take the drug dogs around haha, only Lakeland High!
i'm also excited to see what kind of shit the Senior class is gonna pull on Senior prank day...it's gonna be good, i know that much. i love this time of year, because it's almost summer and school is a joke by this time and the teachers are sick of teaching so they watch movies on youtube with you and talk about really inaproppriate things like giving students relationship advice, swearing, sex, their unborn children being well-hung like their Father..oooh wait, thats just Lebutt. hahaha
ookay thats enough for now, gooodbye
so i've realized that i am over him...when i look at him i don't even see the same person that i knew, its a different guy with a different personality so i don't even care about that
i just miss having him as him. i miss all the good conversations, and the cute dates, or things he said, or just plain old memories and good times that i sure as hell will neverrr forget.
the cure to this is; having a new boyfriend, see i realize that as much as i miss Chad for who he was [i use 'was' because he isn't the same person now] i just miss having a really good realtionship with someone, i don't think it was the fact of it being with HIM as much as it was just being with a caring, romantic, and loving guy. i'm not saying a need a boyfriend to be happy, because i am very happy where i am right now without a boyfriend but what i'm saying is that while i keep telling myself i miss Chad, and i miss what Chad did and what Chad said. it's really not that at all, i miss the fact of having a good boyfriend, what a good boyfriend did, and all the good things a good boyfriend said.
honestly though it is seriously SO surreal to talk to him now, i just feel like its a guy i used to have a crush on or something, not someone that i seriously dated. thats really weird. like i think back on times when we were together and remember what its like to be with him, and it all feels like a dream, or should i say nightmare since it ended so shitfully..ha coool word. but whatever, i like making new relvations in here, whatever that means
god, i'm really pathetic lol
i'm really looking forward to the Seniors leaving, actually i'm not at all, only because seeing him like 56 times everyday only adds fuel to the fire. but seriously i don't want these Seniors to leave, someone switch them with the Juniors and have them leave and keep the current Seniors for another year, no one likes the Juniors...gayy. next year's gonna be stupid, not really, but i feel like being negative.
actually i'm just looking forward to getting our yearbooks, i'm not kidding, thats like the highlight of the school year to me. i seriously read every single page :)
and i'm excited for the fact that its the last few weeks of school which is always when crazy shit goes down like a Mercury spill and being trapped in the school till 8 or being locked out of the school in the morning or random lockdowns to take the drug dogs around haha, only Lakeland High!
i'm also excited to see what kind of shit the Senior class is gonna pull on Senior prank day...it's gonna be good, i know that much. i love this time of year, because it's almost summer and school is a joke by this time and the teachers are sick of teaching so they watch movies on youtube with you and talk about really inaproppriate things like giving students relationship advice, swearing, sex, their unborn children being well-hung like their Father..oooh wait, thats just Lebutt. hahaha
ookay thats enough for now, gooodbye