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i might be going away for a couple of weeks (i need to get my brain detoxed)
im sorry i havent been around, been flaking(i went home and vomited and fell asleep then woke up with a 101 fever around midnight...i really wanted to see you and 'love songs' but im going through a really rough patch)
my mom took me to woodhull hospital(bleakest pace ever) today to talk to someone about getting medicaid because being a starving artist fresh out of school makes you poor and empty inside. i have my full time job but i usually lose money instead of gaining it and have just enough for rent and a pile of groceries if im lucky by the end of the month.
i hate pills.dont ever take them EVER. they'll only steal your spirit and your spark and the ability to know who you are individually.or you binge drink on top of taking pills only causing more damage in the long run even though it calms your nerves.
i think one of my friends is going through a similar predicament but ive lost touch with a lot of the people i love and sometimes i just pretend that im david bowie from 'the last man on earth' or 'the omega man'(your pick)
i just moved to clinton hill off the classon stop on the g. im living with lovely wonderful amelia.
im very excited to have an extra room to paint in. once i get my brain together i will be making more music and finally pick up a paintbrush.
i miss you guys, all of you.
maybe in a couple of weeks i'll be back to normal?
p.s i am planning on buying tickets for Mum(amazing icelandic band patrick animal introduced me to while falling asleep late/early in the morning one saturday) april 22(dad's birthday) at the blender theatre in gramercy if anyone wants to accompany patrick and alexandar and i to it.
AND HIGH PLACES AND GANG GANG DANCE are playing on MY 25TH BIRTHDAY APRIL 29TH AT SOUTHPAW IN PARK SLOPE.
these are the only two nights in a long while that i am actually looking forward to
(besides seeing love songs with toby one of these nights)
i had to put my beloved rusty the cat down to sleep on monday morning because his kidneys were failing, he lost 15 pounds from starving himself for two weeks, and i didnt want him to suffer more than he was.
im getting hisname tattooed on my arm with a childish looking heart surrounding it.
if anyone wants to draw it up, id love it genuinely. rusty was one of the loves of my life, he was therefor me since i was 9 yrs old and if i hadnt adopted him he probably wouldve died a lot sooner.
he also has comforted me immensely throughout the years(i dont wantto share my horror stories...even though theyvebeen creeping up on me as of late and have been making me realize that i cant hide the truth forever)
ihope everyone is enjoying the weather outside.
i live about ten short walking blocks away from fort greene park if anyone wants to ever come over and ride bikes over there.
i miss my old self. ie; not hiding from the world.
im sorry i havent been around, been flaking(i went home and vomited and fell asleep then woke up with a 101 fever around midnight...i really wanted to see you and 'love songs' but im going through a really rough patch)
my mom took me to woodhull hospital(bleakest pace ever) today to talk to someone about getting medicaid because being a starving artist fresh out of school makes you poor and empty inside. i have my full time job but i usually lose money instead of gaining it and have just enough for rent and a pile of groceries if im lucky by the end of the month.
i hate pills.dont ever take them EVER. they'll only steal your spirit and your spark and the ability to know who you are individually.or you binge drink on top of taking pills only causing more damage in the long run even though it calms your nerves.
i think one of my friends is going through a similar predicament but ive lost touch with a lot of the people i love and sometimes i just pretend that im david bowie from 'the last man on earth' or 'the omega man'(your pick)
i just moved to clinton hill off the classon stop on the g. im living with lovely wonderful amelia.
im very excited to have an extra room to paint in. once i get my brain together i will be making more music and finally pick up a paintbrush.
i miss you guys, all of you.
maybe in a couple of weeks i'll be back to normal?
p.s i am planning on buying tickets for Mum(amazing icelandic band patrick animal introduced me to while falling asleep late/early in the morning one saturday) april 22(dad's birthday) at the blender theatre in gramercy if anyone wants to accompany patrick and alexandar and i to it.
AND HIGH PLACES AND GANG GANG DANCE are playing on MY 25TH BIRTHDAY APRIL 29TH AT SOUTHPAW IN PARK SLOPE.
these are the only two nights in a long while that i am actually looking forward to
(besides seeing love songs with toby one of these nights)
i had to put my beloved rusty the cat down to sleep on monday morning because his kidneys were failing, he lost 15 pounds from starving himself for two weeks, and i didnt want him to suffer more than he was.
im getting hisname tattooed on my arm with a childish looking heart surrounding it.
if anyone wants to draw it up, id love it genuinely. rusty was one of the loves of my life, he was therefor me since i was 9 yrs old and if i hadnt adopted him he probably wouldve died a lot sooner.
he also has comforted me immensely throughout the years(i dont wantto share my horror stories...even though theyvebeen creeping up on me as of late and have been making me realize that i cant hide the truth forever)
ihope everyone is enjoying the weather outside.
i live about ten short walking blocks away from fort greene park if anyone wants to ever come over and ride bikes over there.
i miss my old self. ie; not hiding from the world.