lesson of the day
gratefulness to God changes dissatisfaction into contentment.
lately i've been so down and everyday has been an emotional rollercoaster ride from hell. everyday. not every day. and i also stopped journalling, both on lj and on paper. it feels like time just flies by. i may or may not even know what i'm doing or what's going on but time just whizzes by. sometimes it feels like i'm just standing on the peripherals of my own life, watching it go by me. like i'm standing on the edge of a busy pavement, just watching the world go by.
uni just really isn't easy. at all. maybe it's just my course, but taking four units, the standard requirement, feels enough to kill. i've uni twice a week- tuesday and wednesday. and i've full days on both days, 10/8am - 6/5pm and it drains me so completely that i take thursday, friday and even saturday to recover from it. i've three assignments and one test due next week and it's only the fourth week of uni. and they're assignments like photoshop and mini-documentaries. not essays that you can complete in hours. and it's been raining which really makes me cranky, especially if i can't go out.
yet in all that, God opened my eyes to the blessings He's poured into my life recently.
He's blessed me with friends who go through all these with me. Debbie and Shaeera, my beloved classmates who go through hell and back with me, every day. we live in building 208, stuck in the editing suite for hours on end. we occasionally hop over to the MacLab for a photoshop break from final cut pro. no doubt we'll soon be living in the abacus labs too. but yet, we stick together. three tiny asian girls lugging a metal box filled with video equipment across campus and soon, around perth. through this all, we still find time to laugh, to play, to chat. and instead of dreading all that's to come, i'm gonna be excited. excited at the prospect of getting to know them better, and to go through all this with them. and i believe that at the end of the sem, at the end of the year, when our films are screened for all to see, we'll look back and feel like we can conquer anything if we do it together.
He's blessed me so abundantly with Van and Lin, who still stand by me in everything. thanks to the wonderful technology of the albeit pmsy-y whatsapp, we've been able to keep in close contact with each other. and oddly enough, we're now closer than we were over the past three years since we left sac. they're the darlings who posted over a package for my birthday, and the same people i first think of informing whenever something new happens in my life. i really thank God for them cos we've stuck with each other so faithfully over the past few years, it's amazing. we're so closely tied together at heart, we really feel each others' emotions and every time something happens to them, i feel it too. i'm so excited for next year when we're all gonna be back on the same continent and in the same country yet again. after experiencing life here, all i want for them is to enjoy it as much as i am. and although we won't be in the same state, we'll still be together no matter what, of that, i'm sure. it's funny how distance brings people closer. and even funnier how God has no issues keeping people together. if we relied on ourselves, our friendship would've disintegrated years ago, no doubt about that. but ours has always been a friendship built on God and it's been one of the most fulfilling relationships i've ever had.
He's also blessed me with Bin, who's really took a lot of shit from me recently. God really has no problems bringing two people together. even if they're two people from completely different worlds. and who are completely different in every aspect except the one that binds them together- their faith. and he's just been so reassuring and well, just there when i need him. which is quite basically every bad day. which as of recently, has been everyday. nearly without fail. admittedly, we haven't known each other for long, but when you're overseas together, out of your comfort zone, you've no one else to depend on, and somehow, you go through so much more together, and that makes up for the lack of time or history. everyday is a learning process for the both of us, but i really can't imagine going through the past few months again, without him. i'm gonna wake up everyday and remind myself that God has really blessed me and outdid Himself this time, because Bin is someone whom i really don't deserve. and that's the beauty of God's grace.
and well, although we fight often, i'm undoubtedly grateful for the one and only bff. the one who has really stuck by me since two years ago and took the most amount of shit ever. he's seen me through the best and the worst in my life. the defeats and the victories. and he never gave up. ever. even when he's going through shit in his own life, he deals with my shit. and i can never thank him enough for his selflessness and his undying support of me and his loyalty. when everyone turned their backs on me, he was there. he was always always there. what more can anyone ask for in a bff? and well, i know he always means well, although it doesn't sound like it sometimes and may seem questionable at others, but he always means well. it's easy to take someone like this for granted, but one just has to think of everything that they've been through together to realise that it isn't their own human will that kept them together but God's. and that's when it occurs to one that this friendship blossomed because God allowed it to, and that just changes things altogether- puts it in a whole new perspective. and that's what makes it beautiful. so thank you, song, for being my bff, for being there when no one else was and the tunnel of darkness seemed never ending with no source of light at the end of it. thank you, for helping me through all my struggles, even though we weren't on the same continent. i hardly tell you this, but much love from here<3
and well, it's really things like these that keep me going. and if i just remind myself of these little blessings in life everyday, i know i can pull through, with the grace of God and the people He has placed in my life.
lately i've been so down and everyday has been an emotional rollercoaster ride from hell. everyday. not every day. and i also stopped journalling, both on lj and on paper. it feels like time just flies by. i may or may not even know what i'm doing or what's going on but time just whizzes by. sometimes it feels like i'm just standing on the peripherals of my own life, watching it go by me. like i'm standing on the edge of a busy pavement, just watching the world go by.
uni just really isn't easy. at all. maybe it's just my course, but taking four units, the standard requirement, feels enough to kill. i've uni twice a week- tuesday and wednesday. and i've full days on both days, 10/8am - 6/5pm and it drains me so completely that i take thursday, friday and even saturday to recover from it. i've three assignments and one test due next week and it's only the fourth week of uni. and they're assignments like photoshop and mini-documentaries. not essays that you can complete in hours. and it's been raining which really makes me cranky, especially if i can't go out.
yet in all that, God opened my eyes to the blessings He's poured into my life recently.
He's blessed me with friends who go through all these with me. Debbie and Shaeera, my beloved classmates who go through hell and back with me, every day. we live in building 208, stuck in the editing suite for hours on end. we occasionally hop over to the MacLab for a photoshop break from final cut pro. no doubt we'll soon be living in the abacus labs too. but yet, we stick together. three tiny asian girls lugging a metal box filled with video equipment across campus and soon, around perth. through this all, we still find time to laugh, to play, to chat. and instead of dreading all that's to come, i'm gonna be excited. excited at the prospect of getting to know them better, and to go through all this with them. and i believe that at the end of the sem, at the end of the year, when our films are screened for all to see, we'll look back and feel like we can conquer anything if we do it together.
He's blessed me so abundantly with Van and Lin, who still stand by me in everything. thanks to the wonderful technology of the albeit pmsy-y whatsapp, we've been able to keep in close contact with each other. and oddly enough, we're now closer than we were over the past three years since we left sac. they're the darlings who posted over a package for my birthday, and the same people i first think of informing whenever something new happens in my life. i really thank God for them cos we've stuck with each other so faithfully over the past few years, it's amazing. we're so closely tied together at heart, we really feel each others' emotions and every time something happens to them, i feel it too. i'm so excited for next year when we're all gonna be back on the same continent and in the same country yet again. after experiencing life here, all i want for them is to enjoy it as much as i am. and although we won't be in the same state, we'll still be together no matter what, of that, i'm sure. it's funny how distance brings people closer. and even funnier how God has no issues keeping people together. if we relied on ourselves, our friendship would've disintegrated years ago, no doubt about that. but ours has always been a friendship built on God and it's been one of the most fulfilling relationships i've ever had.
He's also blessed me with Bin, who's really took a lot of shit from me recently. God really has no problems bringing two people together. even if they're two people from completely different worlds. and who are completely different in every aspect except the one that binds them together- their faith. and he's just been so reassuring and well, just there when i need him. which is quite basically every bad day. which as of recently, has been everyday. nearly without fail. admittedly, we haven't known each other for long, but when you're overseas together, out of your comfort zone, you've no one else to depend on, and somehow, you go through so much more together, and that makes up for the lack of time or history. everyday is a learning process for the both of us, but i really can't imagine going through the past few months again, without him. i'm gonna wake up everyday and remind myself that God has really blessed me and outdid Himself this time, because Bin is someone whom i really don't deserve. and that's the beauty of God's grace.
and well, although we fight often, i'm undoubtedly grateful for the one and only bff. the one who has really stuck by me since two years ago and took the most amount of shit ever. he's seen me through the best and the worst in my life. the defeats and the victories. and he never gave up. ever. even when he's going through shit in his own life, he deals with my shit. and i can never thank him enough for his selflessness and his undying support of me and his loyalty. when everyone turned their backs on me, he was there. he was always always there. what more can anyone ask for in a bff? and well, i know he always means well, although it doesn't sound like it sometimes and may seem questionable at others, but he always means well. it's easy to take someone like this for granted, but one just has to think of everything that they've been through together to realise that it isn't their own human will that kept them together but God's. and that's when it occurs to one that this friendship blossomed because God allowed it to, and that just changes things altogether- puts it in a whole new perspective. and that's what makes it beautiful. so thank you, song, for being my bff, for being there when no one else was and the tunnel of darkness seemed never ending with no source of light at the end of it. thank you, for helping me through all my struggles, even though we weren't on the same continent. i hardly tell you this, but much love from here<3
and well, it's really things like these that keep me going. and if i just remind myself of these little blessings in life everyday, i know i can pull through, with the grace of God and the people He has placed in my life.