Fic: Torn
Title: Torn
Pairings: Akame, Pikame
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Smut, Romance, Drama, Angst
Author’s Notes: Written in Kazuya’s POV. This has the same storyline as Waiting and is requested by yuyako16 and dazehyde. It’s not really necessary for you guys to read the other versions but I’ll be happy if you do! (: Hope you guys like it. :D
Summary: Kazuya loves both of them. Kazuya needs both of them. But who will he choose in the end?
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I continued gulping down numerous shots of vodka and I can already feel my throat burn because of the alcohol. But I didn’t care. I started feeling dizzy until I couldn’t see clearly anymore but even from afar, I knew he was still out there, drunk or not, still dancing with some random ladies and I know he’ll never stop.
I turned and saw him. He looked like he was having fun. Too much fun. And I know I couldn’t say anything. I continued to watch while drinking another shot of vodka and I saw him roam his hands around with a woman who barely has clothes on.
I sighed, not really knowing what to do. I felt like crying. Indeed, I did. I felt cheated, hurt but even after all those, I know in my heart that I can’t break up with him. I love him too much to even do that.
I sighed again, not caring anymore on what’s going on.
I turned back to the bar I was seated and I could feel your eyes piercing, watching me. And with those eyes, I felt protected, cared for, and most of all, loved. The kind of emotions I always feel happy about, feeling treasured and at least something given worth. I feel happy it came from you, because I know I could always trust you.
And as I turned a bit to look back at him dancing in the middle of the dance floor, I remember you ask me before, “Why don’t you break ties with him already?” and I could still remember how I remained positive, thinking that after all this is done, after all this drunk madness and he becomes sober again, everything will be back to normal. This happens once every week and I don’t know if it’s good or bad that I’ve gotten used to it.
I felt for my head and I couldn’t really see or even think properly anymore. And so I turned to you with desperate, pleading eyes whispering your name.
“Jin,” I faintly whispered as I gripped your arm tight, trying to emphasize my point, because I know during those kinds of desperate times, you’re always the one I could turn to and be my company and I really love you for that. Truly, I do. And sometimes I wonder if I chose the right man, but for now, all I could think about was, I need you.
My whole body felt hot as I got closer to you, burying my head deeper in your shoulder and moved up a bit to whisper in your ear and against your cheek. You didn’t smell like alcohol much and I knew even before that you weren’t much of a drinker. I sighed again, letting my hot breath caress your cheeks as I whisper your name again.
“Jin…” I saw you bite your bottom lip, a bit unsure, and look back again at Yamapi dancing on the floor, checking if he was still sober to even notice that we’re leaving. You turned back to me and I realized it was already okay for us to go and so I let you wrap an arm around my shoulders and let you lead us out of that hurtful place.
You hailed a cab and I instantly knew that we were going to my apartment. I know that you don’t want me to wake up in your apartment, thinking I would be so shock the next morning but I couldn’t count anymore the times how I wish during these times that we could do it at your apartment for a change. I want to know how it feels like to lie on your bed and soak myself with your essence the whole night, and leave the next morning, carrying your scent with me the whole day long.
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You led me inside my apartment and in my room but in my mind, it took too long to get to the destination you want and you should be aware that I’m not the patient type. Without waiting any longer, I grabbed you by your shoulders and pushed you against the bedroom door, instantly kissing your lips and forcing my tongue inside.
I could sense your surprise reaction in the kiss but I felt you relax as you kissed me back and wrapped your arms around my waist, and at that moment, I felt I was on cloud nine. Our tongues battled out and I lost in the end and I could feel your hands roaming around my waist, until you pulled away from the kiss for a second to pull my shirt over my head.
You kissed me back fiercely after and it was my turn to take off your shirt. Once it was off, I took the chance to roam my hands around your built body and I could sense myself feeling hotter than ever. All I my mind could scream about was for you to take me now.
We continued to walk clumsily towards the direction of the bed, lips still intertwined and almost tripping on the way. You pushed me on the bed and straddled me after, and your expert hands continued to make their way in undressing the bottom part of me. I moaned in our kiss, all the while feeling the cool air brushing on my bare legs when I was left with nothing except my boxers.
“Jin…” I moaned and I could feel your tongue leaving wet trails around my body, and I felt the hard sucking on my neck which I knew would be very visible the day after. But I couldn’t care less when you started to nuzzle against my clothed throbbing member and I could feel my self growing harder even more and more.
I grabbed you by hair and forced you to be face-to-face with me again and claim your lips. During the kiss, it was my turn to roam my hands around your body until it found your pants and I found it quite difficult to take it off when all of my focus was on the hot kiss. I sensed you felt my uneasiness which is why you stopped my hands and helped me in removing your clothes. It wasn’t long ‘til both of us were left with nothing but boxers that keeps on feeling tighter every second.
“Kazuya,” I heard you purr against my lips as your hands found the waistband of my boxers and I knew it was already time. You pulled down my boxers followed by yours and I groaned louder when our exposed members came in contact with each other. I gripped harder on your shoulders, moaning your name, already desperate in wanting you inside of me.
I opened my eyes and looked at you directly, giving a silent sign that I am already ready to take it and I want you now. I heaved a huge gasp of air and closed my eyes when I felt the tip of your member slowly entering my unprepared hole and my eyes suddenly widened when you instantly inserted your whole member inside of me.
“Jin…” I gasped and clung onto your shoulders when you started to move. The friction of you and my inner walls were killing me. I bit my lips and closed my eyes tight as you started to rock harder and move faster and every time you do so, you hit the certain spot that would always make me go crazy.
And if that wasn’t enough, I felt your hand sneak between our stomachs and you grab hold of my own member, pumping it with the same rhythm as we rock. It was hard at first, but eventually became successful. I can sense your eyes watching me carefully and I felt my cheeks heat up more with that thought.
With one last hit on my spot, I finally came and spilled all over your hand, feeling tired all of a sudden.
“Jin,” I whispered one last time until I felt my eyes fell heavy and I knew I was finally off to dreamland. I never really knew what you did after that. Did you stay longer or did you leave at once?
But what I know is that every time we do this, I would wake up all alone in the bed next morning, feeling the pain in my ass and I can see the dark marks on my neck when I look at myself in the mirror.
I sighed.
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I was with him the next day and I was very happy indeed. I felt the great feeling of bliss as he wrapped an arm around my shoulders, telling me sweet nothings in my ear that made my heart always skip a bit. I would laugh at his clumsy acts and would sometimes give him a quick kiss on the cheeks as a reward.
However, beyond all those, I could feel you just around the corner, watching. And I sometimes wonder, can I ever do these things-the things I do to Yamapi-to you? Even for a quick moment, I want to experience this moment of love and happiness with you and not only as the person who always seeks selfish comfort from you, and you never even ask for a reward.
I love him. I love you. I need the both of you.
But in choosing the right person for me, is something that I could never figure out for myself.
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Author’s Notes: *continues running away from thrown bricks and tomatoes* Comments? :] *runs to make the Yamapi POV version* XDDD
Pairings: Akame, Pikame
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Smut, Romance, Drama, Angst
Author’s Notes: Written in Kazuya’s POV. This has the same storyline as Waiting and is requested by yuyako16 and dazehyde. It’s not really necessary for you guys to read the other versions but I’ll be happy if you do! (: Hope you guys like it. :D
Summary: Kazuya loves both of them. Kazuya needs both of them. But who will he choose in the end?
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I continued gulping down numerous shots of vodka and I can already feel my throat burn because of the alcohol. But I didn’t care. I started feeling dizzy until I couldn’t see clearly anymore but even from afar, I knew he was still out there, drunk or not, still dancing with some random ladies and I know he’ll never stop.
I turned and saw him. He looked like he was having fun. Too much fun. And I know I couldn’t say anything. I continued to watch while drinking another shot of vodka and I saw him roam his hands around with a woman who barely has clothes on.
I sighed, not really knowing what to do. I felt like crying. Indeed, I did. I felt cheated, hurt but even after all those, I know in my heart that I can’t break up with him. I love him too much to even do that.
I sighed again, not caring anymore on what’s going on.
I turned back to the bar I was seated and I could feel your eyes piercing, watching me. And with those eyes, I felt protected, cared for, and most of all, loved. The kind of emotions I always feel happy about, feeling treasured and at least something given worth. I feel happy it came from you, because I know I could always trust you.
And as I turned a bit to look back at him dancing in the middle of the dance floor, I remember you ask me before, “Why don’t you break ties with him already?” and I could still remember how I remained positive, thinking that after all this is done, after all this drunk madness and he becomes sober again, everything will be back to normal. This happens once every week and I don’t know if it’s good or bad that I’ve gotten used to it.
I felt for my head and I couldn’t really see or even think properly anymore. And so I turned to you with desperate, pleading eyes whispering your name.
“Jin,” I faintly whispered as I gripped your arm tight, trying to emphasize my point, because I know during those kinds of desperate times, you’re always the one I could turn to and be my company and I really love you for that. Truly, I do. And sometimes I wonder if I chose the right man, but for now, all I could think about was, I need you.
My whole body felt hot as I got closer to you, burying my head deeper in your shoulder and moved up a bit to whisper in your ear and against your cheek. You didn’t smell like alcohol much and I knew even before that you weren’t much of a drinker. I sighed again, letting my hot breath caress your cheeks as I whisper your name again.
“Jin…” I saw you bite your bottom lip, a bit unsure, and look back again at Yamapi dancing on the floor, checking if he was still sober to even notice that we’re leaving. You turned back to me and I realized it was already okay for us to go and so I let you wrap an arm around my shoulders and let you lead us out of that hurtful place.
You hailed a cab and I instantly knew that we were going to my apartment. I know that you don’t want me to wake up in your apartment, thinking I would be so shock the next morning but I couldn’t count anymore the times how I wish during these times that we could do it at your apartment for a change. I want to know how it feels like to lie on your bed and soak myself with your essence the whole night, and leave the next morning, carrying your scent with me the whole day long.
-
You led me inside my apartment and in my room but in my mind, it took too long to get to the destination you want and you should be aware that I’m not the patient type. Without waiting any longer, I grabbed you by your shoulders and pushed you against the bedroom door, instantly kissing your lips and forcing my tongue inside.
I could sense your surprise reaction in the kiss but I felt you relax as you kissed me back and wrapped your arms around my waist, and at that moment, I felt I was on cloud nine. Our tongues battled out and I lost in the end and I could feel your hands roaming around my waist, until you pulled away from the kiss for a second to pull my shirt over my head.
You kissed me back fiercely after and it was my turn to take off your shirt. Once it was off, I took the chance to roam my hands around your built body and I could sense myself feeling hotter than ever. All I my mind could scream about was for you to take me now.
We continued to walk clumsily towards the direction of the bed, lips still intertwined and almost tripping on the way. You pushed me on the bed and straddled me after, and your expert hands continued to make their way in undressing the bottom part of me. I moaned in our kiss, all the while feeling the cool air brushing on my bare legs when I was left with nothing except my boxers.
“Jin…” I moaned and I could feel your tongue leaving wet trails around my body, and I felt the hard sucking on my neck which I knew would be very visible the day after. But I couldn’t care less when you started to nuzzle against my clothed throbbing member and I could feel my self growing harder even more and more.
I grabbed you by hair and forced you to be face-to-face with me again and claim your lips. During the kiss, it was my turn to roam my hands around your body until it found your pants and I found it quite difficult to take it off when all of my focus was on the hot kiss. I sensed you felt my uneasiness which is why you stopped my hands and helped me in removing your clothes. It wasn’t long ‘til both of us were left with nothing but boxers that keeps on feeling tighter every second.
“Kazuya,” I heard you purr against my lips as your hands found the waistband of my boxers and I knew it was already time. You pulled down my boxers followed by yours and I groaned louder when our exposed members came in contact with each other. I gripped harder on your shoulders, moaning your name, already desperate in wanting you inside of me.
I opened my eyes and looked at you directly, giving a silent sign that I am already ready to take it and I want you now. I heaved a huge gasp of air and closed my eyes when I felt the tip of your member slowly entering my unprepared hole and my eyes suddenly widened when you instantly inserted your whole member inside of me.
“Jin…” I gasped and clung onto your shoulders when you started to move. The friction of you and my inner walls were killing me. I bit my lips and closed my eyes tight as you started to rock harder and move faster and every time you do so, you hit the certain spot that would always make me go crazy.
And if that wasn’t enough, I felt your hand sneak between our stomachs and you grab hold of my own member, pumping it with the same rhythm as we rock. It was hard at first, but eventually became successful. I can sense your eyes watching me carefully and I felt my cheeks heat up more with that thought.
With one last hit on my spot, I finally came and spilled all over your hand, feeling tired all of a sudden.
“Jin,” I whispered one last time until I felt my eyes fell heavy and I knew I was finally off to dreamland. I never really knew what you did after that. Did you stay longer or did you leave at once?
But what I know is that every time we do this, I would wake up all alone in the bed next morning, feeling the pain in my ass and I can see the dark marks on my neck when I look at myself in the mirror.
I sighed.
-
I was with him the next day and I was very happy indeed. I felt the great feeling of bliss as he wrapped an arm around my shoulders, telling me sweet nothings in my ear that made my heart always skip a bit. I would laugh at his clumsy acts and would sometimes give him a quick kiss on the cheeks as a reward.
However, beyond all those, I could feel you just around the corner, watching. And I sometimes wonder, can I ever do these things-the things I do to Yamapi-to you? Even for a quick moment, I want to experience this moment of love and happiness with you and not only as the person who always seeks selfish comfort from you, and you never even ask for a reward.
I love him. I love you. I need the both of you.
But in choosing the right person for me, is something that I could never figure out for myself.
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Author’s Notes: *continues running away from thrown bricks and tomatoes* Comments? :] *runs to make the Yamapi POV version* XDDD