機嫌斜め
Today I'm in a shitty mood. I was ok until my mom was telling me about my nephew having croup (like laryngitis that only very young children get) and nothing was working so I suggested having him wear a mask so that the air he breathes would be humidified ALL the time, and she said oh don't be silly Jessica blah blah that's crazy for a three-year-old! And I just felt really insulted by that because that's totally normal in Japan. God, people don't even use umbrellas when it rains over there and then wonder why they get sick. Then they take forever to get better and get everyone else sick too because they think masks are silly too! So I told her not to be so close-minded because its normal here and quite a smart thing, but suggested she try a chest salve that he could inhale. She used to do that for my brother and I and it felt really good! She totally ignored my suggested and was all
Don't call me closed minded I just wanted a suggestion mynah mynah!!!
So convo ended there.
Then later today it was like
Surprise!! We called the helper flute person to perform in this random concert we're doing and she's agreed to do it! We didn't bother to even discuss this with the flute section at all!
We're fine, and if we keep having this other woman, who isn't even a member, help us, those of us who really need to challenge their abilities and improve will never get the chance! It'll all be, ok we have to split up the parts and since she is a teacher and thus very good, she would be a better choice for first and solo parts. Second flute isn't always an easier part unlike with other instrument groups, but we have three players who consistently come to practice! There is one woman who is extremely good and she plays piccolo when the music calls for it. When there isn't a piccolo part I double on second with Naomi because she doesn't have confidence in her ability. Now, she isn't a bad flute at all! She just is kind of slow with things like odd rhythms and lots of sixteenth notes and lots of accidentally, but so am I sometimes! If anyone needs to just get used to the fact that band sometimes IS challenging and you gotta work through it to get better, it's her, because this is her first time in a band and she's in her 30s. She's played flute for like 10 years though! So she's good she just never had to challenge herself. Anyway we're friends and she's great so my angst has nothing to do with her.
Or the helper lady because she is really nice and wonderful, magical fantastic woman. We've been to her house. It's magical!
I'm mad that they just announced this to us today and had not even asked before calling her! The flute section doesn't have a "leader" because I'm foreign and I don't feel like I could handle that, and Naomi doesn't know much about band and we both haven't been in this band for even a year yet. Azusa, the piccolo, is very busy and is kind if outspoken and for that, nobody outside of our section save for a few people like her. So the sax leader is our leader but she doesn't know a lot about flute either, so we all just discuss things like this
Usually
So wtf! This isn't even our bands spring concert! It's just some festival.
Ok
Played with cats, Mimu gave me a hug, Pookie tried to fit in my flute case.. And writing this out made me feel a little better.
A little
Still I feel like its one of those days where any little thing just makes me angry! Like being bored! Dammit it pisses me off.
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