May 01, 2007 23:55
Prove to me you haven't abandoned me.
Prove to me that you still care.
Prove that the whispers and rantings haven't swayed you away from my sight.
Perhaps my own ugliness has pushed you away. Afraid to tell me so, I'll spare you the tension.
I know that I talk too much about myself. I talk too much about my pitiful situation. I talk too much about my hurts and pains and never am I bright enough.
I know you miss the laughter we shared.
I know you miss the flirtations we danced with.
I know you miss the fire that made you ooh and ahhh.
I can't guarantee it will be back
ever.
For those of you who have stayed with me, despite your eye rolling over my self-pity, Thank you. That's as simple as I get.
For those of you who have left in an effort to move forward, I applaud you.
For those of you who find it hard to stay, I'll understand when you finally leave.
I'm sorry for the months of anguish and loathing. I am trying to make it better, but "trying" isn't good enough. I'm sorry.
moods,
real life