Jan 15, 2004 20:10
Today was kind of a really sucky day. Shit just pissed me off. Something doesn't feel right but i just don't know quite what it is. Im doing bad in all of my classes even P.E. and that is obviously one of the easiest classes i have. It's ridiculous how stupid i've been acting lately. I need to get my act together. My friends tell me that im a bitch and that i think it's okay just because i act like that all the time. I know i am a bitch to everyone but i don't think it's okay. I never said that i did. Its just that i cant change so i just blow it off as nothing. But it is something apparently and its pissing my friends off. But there's a lot of things that have been bothering me lately and they have really been getting to me because i can't talk to anyone about them. Its not even dumb things like guys not liking me or me being ugly, I dont let that kind of stuff affect me much anymore. There will always be people prettier than me and ive learned to accept that to the point where it makes no difference to me. But everything i do now seems to be pointless and nothing ever improves. But i guess shit like this happens to everyone and its not so bad anyway. Sorry this journal isn't so great, just random thoughts but no one reads them so really i have no one to apologize to.