Useless
I have found that having a friends only journal doesn't keep people from finding out your buisness. So, I am now having an open journal. I guess that in this world life sucks and then there is reality.....
I am really stressed becasue my sister is more than likely getting a divorce and that means that my nepphew is going to be ripped out of my life and after four years I don't really know what I am going to do. Depressed and sad and all confused.. After the whole Justin and Baby Leonard things I thought that I had finally found a little kid that could take his place. But I guess maybe I am not meant to have a little boy in my life that is everything and takes the place of Justin and Baby Leonard.. I don't have any clue what to do with myself right now.. Screaming is about all that I can think off.
I am glad that my sister is getting herself out of the situation, but I am sad becasue my life is kind of being ripped out from under me. But, I am destined to never have that part of my heart filled with anyone. maybe it is left to be memories of the three little boys that have filled my heart for so long. I am kind of to the point where I never want to meet another little boy that means anything to me...
I am considering talking to Nick's mom about seeing him.... What do you guys think about that option.....
Anthony is the sweetest person in the whole world! I love him so much and he is so the best.....
I just finished this morning, but I started it last night....
But school starts in about an hour and a half..... So see you all there....