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my heart is just so sore sometimes. isnt it a wonder?
Julie, the gal I babysit for, left her gorgeous wedding ring near the sink today while she was gone. So I put it on. I walked around the house doing chores then went and got the baby. It's fun playing pretend. I took Madeline on an hour walk today down a trail. She was so enamoured with the leaves in the two trees we passed (this is CA, its a desert and we have no trees). A guy passed us and asked how old she was. I said almost 8 months and he said his is 10.5 months and we talked about kids for a little. I realized this guy thought she was mine, but I didn't correct him. It's fun playing pretend.
I got a ticktet on my way home. But it was long over due so I was surprisingly not sad at all.
I went to the gym then slept for 5 hours. I wanted to go see "The Last Kiss" by myself but my mom wanted to come and I didn't want to argue. It was all couples- young and old and then me and mom. Lovely. It sums up my life right now. The movie is what I expected. Tradgically depressing but only cause it's reality. All I wanted to do the whole time was feel Clay. I just want to hug him once and then he can go away for another month. Ive been freaking out that he's gonna leave me. Or that I'll panic- years from now- and leave him. I'm more afraid I'll wait for this 6-8 months and he'll come back and be over me. be over us. I'm terrified. This movie confirmed my thoughts about things not working out. Lovely. The move played music I already have and that I can come home and sob to and write to. That's convenient.
Oh I also found my new fav band thanks to becca hunter: SparkleHorse.
Well I guess thats it. Hopefully these things will become more interesting. I just miss him so much. Thanks to J. Van for the welcome back. I have important sleep to get to.
Julie, the gal I babysit for, left her gorgeous wedding ring near the sink today while she was gone. So I put it on. I walked around the house doing chores then went and got the baby. It's fun playing pretend. I took Madeline on an hour walk today down a trail. She was so enamoured with the leaves in the two trees we passed (this is CA, its a desert and we have no trees). A guy passed us and asked how old she was. I said almost 8 months and he said his is 10.5 months and we talked about kids for a little. I realized this guy thought she was mine, but I didn't correct him. It's fun playing pretend.
I got a ticktet on my way home. But it was long over due so I was surprisingly not sad at all.
I went to the gym then slept for 5 hours. I wanted to go see "The Last Kiss" by myself but my mom wanted to come and I didn't want to argue. It was all couples- young and old and then me and mom. Lovely. It sums up my life right now. The movie is what I expected. Tradgically depressing but only cause it's reality. All I wanted to do the whole time was feel Clay. I just want to hug him once and then he can go away for another month. Ive been freaking out that he's gonna leave me. Or that I'll panic- years from now- and leave him. I'm more afraid I'll wait for this 6-8 months and he'll come back and be over me. be over us. I'm terrified. This movie confirmed my thoughts about things not working out. Lovely. The move played music I already have and that I can come home and sob to and write to. That's convenient.
Oh I also found my new fav band thanks to becca hunter: SparkleHorse.
Well I guess thats it. Hopefully these things will become more interesting. I just miss him so much. Thanks to J. Van for the welcome back. I have important sleep to get to.