me
yeah today ive been thinkin alot. people wonder who i am, i sometimes wonder the same thing. who am i. who am i to you? to myself?
as i was thinkin to myself i kept thinkin of ways to describe myself, you know those original descriptions people can give such as- semi tall (5`7 to be exact)i mean im not that tall not good looking, i have blue eyes and need a haircut cause my hair gets too curly to let it grow out, dammit im just a skateboarder who wants to tear up the streets with my board and winter ruins my fun, im just a jackass with a heart to big that i tend to love and care too much about people (nothing wrong with that i suppose)
i hate arrogant,simple minded, ignorant people i describe my attitude to be that compared to dr. jekyll and mr.hyde
most of the time im a normal simple teenager, but with the right potion i can be a raging lunatic that needs to be locked up, i try so hard to keep myself under control, not to expload. not to hurtmyself im proud you know, i havent done anything for a full 10 months the last time i did it was in feburary and i havent done it since, god sometimes its so tempting, one wrong day and where everything goes wrong i come home i see a nail a pair of siscors or sumthing
im tempted but i dont i will not, i refuse, ive hurt so many people that way i cant anymore i will not let them suffer because of my own pain and my own suffering, no i will get better i will find the light and i will grab the rope and climb to the top. i have a future, i want it to be a good one, i want to be able to see the good in the bad and not be able to take things for granted when things are indeed good, things are getting better i know it, i've got christina, kathy, lindsay, ryan, jessie, lydia, people from school, i know they care about me, but please dont be afraid to remind me, i need it sometimes guys and girls, i need that reminder everyonce in a while, i need a friend to help get the voices out of my head, im not kidding i do hear things, its crazy, im crazy. im so akward right now, i feel happy and emotional at the same time, like im worrying about nothing for no reason i dono mabye my heart is tryin to tell me somethin? you suppose? i dono help me out folks tell me im ok tell me everything is gonna b ok tell me im a good person, i am a good person right? i make people happy dont i? i do good things, i try hard, i mean i think i do, god i hope i do i just want to help people, make them happy, be there for them no matter what, but im only human, dammit im only human i wanna b in 2 places at once or at least be able to go anywhere i want anytime i want at will, man that'd be great, id go to germany or someplace and explore, see the world, not the bad but the good, see the light, not the darkness, no, i cannot allow myself to be consumed by darkness, ive already fallen in that pit and im workin my way out slowly but its being done, its being done, thank you so much for watching me, now pay close attention, something is happening and i dont know what ive been really moody and im hiding everything better then ever, watch me please keep an eye and protect me from myself, thats scary, protect me from myself no one should ever have to be scared of themselves, no one should worry about me, im good, im begining to feel really happy now im going to be ok i promise, just.... watch me, love me, now more then ever, i need love, we all need love, love is such a strong weapon, anything can be accomplished with love, truley it can. im gonna wrap it up here, i have so much to say and so little time to say it, talk to me, get inside my head and learn what i have to say, and let me listen to you, tell me what you have to say, i want to learn too, i want to gain the ultimate knowlage, yes the meaning of life, the purpose of meaning, 2+2=? i want to know everything, no im not talking being able to read peoples mind im talkin just knowlege, i want to teach, i want to share.............wish me luck
signed by yours truly,
Robert D. Anderson-knowledge seeker
as i was thinkin to myself i kept thinkin of ways to describe myself, you know those original descriptions people can give such as- semi tall (5`7 to be exact)i mean im not that tall not good looking, i have blue eyes and need a haircut cause my hair gets too curly to let it grow out, dammit im just a skateboarder who wants to tear up the streets with my board and winter ruins my fun, im just a jackass with a heart to big that i tend to love and care too much about people (nothing wrong with that i suppose)
i hate arrogant,simple minded, ignorant people i describe my attitude to be that compared to dr. jekyll and mr.hyde
most of the time im a normal simple teenager, but with the right potion i can be a raging lunatic that needs to be locked up, i try so hard to keep myself under control, not to expload. not to hurtmyself im proud you know, i havent done anything for a full 10 months the last time i did it was in feburary and i havent done it since, god sometimes its so tempting, one wrong day and where everything goes wrong i come home i see a nail a pair of siscors or sumthing
im tempted but i dont i will not, i refuse, ive hurt so many people that way i cant anymore i will not let them suffer because of my own pain and my own suffering, no i will get better i will find the light and i will grab the rope and climb to the top. i have a future, i want it to be a good one, i want to be able to see the good in the bad and not be able to take things for granted when things are indeed good, things are getting better i know it, i've got christina, kathy, lindsay, ryan, jessie, lydia, people from school, i know they care about me, but please dont be afraid to remind me, i need it sometimes guys and girls, i need that reminder everyonce in a while, i need a friend to help get the voices out of my head, im not kidding i do hear things, its crazy, im crazy. im so akward right now, i feel happy and emotional at the same time, like im worrying about nothing for no reason i dono mabye my heart is tryin to tell me somethin? you suppose? i dono help me out folks tell me im ok tell me everything is gonna b ok tell me im a good person, i am a good person right? i make people happy dont i? i do good things, i try hard, i mean i think i do, god i hope i do i just want to help people, make them happy, be there for them no matter what, but im only human, dammit im only human i wanna b in 2 places at once or at least be able to go anywhere i want anytime i want at will, man that'd be great, id go to germany or someplace and explore, see the world, not the bad but the good, see the light, not the darkness, no, i cannot allow myself to be consumed by darkness, ive already fallen in that pit and im workin my way out slowly but its being done, its being done, thank you so much for watching me, now pay close attention, something is happening and i dont know what ive been really moody and im hiding everything better then ever, watch me please keep an eye and protect me from myself, thats scary, protect me from myself no one should ever have to be scared of themselves, no one should worry about me, im good, im begining to feel really happy now im going to be ok i promise, just.... watch me, love me, now more then ever, i need love, we all need love, love is such a strong weapon, anything can be accomplished with love, truley it can. im gonna wrap it up here, i have so much to say and so little time to say it, talk to me, get inside my head and learn what i have to say, and let me listen to you, tell me what you have to say, i want to learn too, i want to gain the ultimate knowlage, yes the meaning of life, the purpose of meaning, 2+2=? i want to know everything, no im not talking being able to read peoples mind im talkin just knowlege, i want to teach, i want to share.............wish me luck
signed by yours truly,
Robert D. Anderson-knowledge seeker