im sorry
i know im probally going to get bitched at for this entry..but i really dont care because its how i feel right now and you cant help how you feel.
i know its been about 7 months now but me and heather were talking about him yesterday..just out of the blue conversation..we were reminiscing if you will...well anyway we were talking about him..and we were saying about how we saw him all the time and all that bullshit..and today our song came on the radio and i think this is like the second time i've actually listened to the whole thing in a long time without bawling my eyes out...so the song ended and i just sat there and didn't really know what to think and then mockingbird came on and heather imed me..and guess what she said " OMG YOU WONT BELIEVE WHO I JUST SAW IN THE PARKINGLOT OF WAL*MART" "WE WERE JUST TALKING ABOUT HIM!!!" and i said "noo shiiit" and shes like " yeah! i almost died and thought of you instantly..hes got to be about 6foot or a little over and he is as tan as the day is long"...and i just sat there...and all the memories i have of him that i put into the back of my mind cause i didn't need them anymore..came flooding back in..all the times i'd sneak out of art cause mr dressel never noticed anything..to go outside and talk to him...and all the time at lunch when we hung out...and in math..math was always fun when he was there..yes i just said math with mrs hampton was fun cause i knew he was sitting a few seats behind me..and i kinda miss that..... =\
The Reason..Hoobastank
I'm not a perfect person There's many things I wish I didn't do But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you And so, I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new And the reason is you I'm sorry that I hurt you It's something I must live with everyday And all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away And be the one who catches all your tears That's why I need you to hear I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new And the reason is you And the reason is you And the reason is you And the reason is you I'm not a perfect person I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new And the reason is you I've found a reason to show A side of me you didn't know A reason for all that I do And the reason is you