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I don't know if i'd mentioned that i applied for Grad school at MU. i got a letter yesterday notifying me of the date and time that i'm to be interviewed. 8:30 to 1 pm. !! Lord only knows what we'll be doing the WHOLE time. i have about 2 weeks till then, so i'll be preparing and rehearsing what i'll be saying.
I don't think i'm nervous, but i might be as the day closes in. i only applied to one school. (you can see how careless that is) but i guess when they told me the school gives priority to MU students, i kinda stopped worrying (although it costs an arm and a leg too). but anyway, if i'm accepted, great. although i'm going to have very demanding 3 years of my life, it'll be good to continue right after graduation. then i can do the deferment thingy for the grad loans and work my behind off! this is going to be my career. PT lisence won't be a walk in the park,... atleast that's what i've observed. with my quiet personality, i've to make up for it with excellence in treatment. since it's such a great paying job, i'll most probably not worry about paying off my tuition loans once i'm done. God willing, all will be alright.
but if i'm rejected, it'll also be great because there'll be a whole year before another round of application kicks in. and in the mean time, there're a lot of things i could do:
- think about loans
- i could try and figure out why living with parents is so frustrating!! as much as i love them, i feel so guilty that i'm "suffocated" by being there!
- as a result, i might even move out
- get another job in the Psych field, ....hopefully one that pays better than good, bc, just the undergrad loan seems unpayable any time soon.
- i just need some time off from school and grow in my spiritual and social life!
since school went out on Dec 15th, i have just been working morning till around noon or 2 pm, and then i'm home all day. thankfully though, i havn't felt undeserving of all of the movies i've watched. more than feeling useless bc of no school, i feel like i just need to get the heck out on my own. i feel i need to know myself aside from influence of family and relatives. i had planned to go to, maybe Vancouver for a few weeks in the summer,... to unwind. but since Tata will most likely be arriving here for my graduation (cross my fingers) this trip plan might not be possible. i don't want to go with any family member. i just want to be alone. actually, i want to go on those kinds of trips where you'll not be allowed to talk, but reflect,...do the spa and the whole 9 yards, etc. just anywhere i can figure out whatever it is i feel is not right about me. it's an exciting idea,..and hopefully will be as practical after graduation, as it seems now.
umm... =) i love this segment: im listening to Yanni's "Nostalgia" from his Snowfall album.