*big fucking sigh*
ooook...those who want to stay away from anger and profanity, might not want to read this little entry...
i absolutely hate most aspects of myself. and i really think school has made me this way. im extremely upset all of a sudden about this failing precal thing. yes, you heard me. most of you knew anyway, but i'll officially annouce it, I FUCKING FAILED THAT WHORE'S PRECAL CLASS. there. with a damn 53. it wasnt completely unexpected. but now i feel like a COMPLETE idiot. like i'll never get anywhere. mrs. tanner stopped me in the hall and told me that i needed to talk to mrs. jones about taking it at valley. ya know what? fuck that. i'll take it next year, ya know why? because i dont think the world of IB and its damn diploma. i really dont anymore. why did i think it would be so great to get it in the first place? i'll just be a dumb ass apparently, since i wont have it. thats ok, everyone can think what they want. i'll be down there with the rest of the world, who doesnt have the prestigious diploma. the prestige isnt worth it to me. tis shitty. im tired of feeling like im not worth anything because of this school. yes, i still feel that way, right now. i havent gotten over it yet. and im sure i'll feel that way for a long ass time.
oh, and im not angry at any of the people who do get the diploma, by all means, im very happy for you. im apparently just way too damn stupid...
i guess i'll go work on some stuff right before i go to that meeting....even though it will probably be a waste of my time since i'll never even get into college....
i absolutely hate most aspects of myself. and i really think school has made me this way. im extremely upset all of a sudden about this failing precal thing. yes, you heard me. most of you knew anyway, but i'll officially annouce it, I FUCKING FAILED THAT WHORE'S PRECAL CLASS. there. with a damn 53. it wasnt completely unexpected. but now i feel like a COMPLETE idiot. like i'll never get anywhere. mrs. tanner stopped me in the hall and told me that i needed to talk to mrs. jones about taking it at valley. ya know what? fuck that. i'll take it next year, ya know why? because i dont think the world of IB and its damn diploma. i really dont anymore. why did i think it would be so great to get it in the first place? i'll just be a dumb ass apparently, since i wont have it. thats ok, everyone can think what they want. i'll be down there with the rest of the world, who doesnt have the prestigious diploma. the prestige isnt worth it to me. tis shitty. im tired of feeling like im not worth anything because of this school. yes, i still feel that way, right now. i havent gotten over it yet. and im sure i'll feel that way for a long ass time.
oh, and im not angry at any of the people who do get the diploma, by all means, im very happy for you. im apparently just way too damn stupid...
i guess i'll go work on some stuff right before i go to that meeting....even though it will probably be a waste of my time since i'll never even get into college....