get well soon
i'm seriously addicted to the new death cab stuff. i mean, i always know anything ben gibbard does i love... he has beautiful thoughts and even more beautiful ways of verbalizing them. he seems to say it all just right. perfect.
these two songs, lyrically and musically, just seemed to sit with me differently. i love the entire CD, but these two.... wow. i wish someone would write songs like this for me... like write them with me in mind, and mean them to be for me. they both make me want to cry.. but in a good way. they are so touching... like i will follow you into the dark? i will die WITH you? that is the most intense form of love to feel for someone. that is amazing it exists in real life. and someday you will be loved? real real sweet that he is saying this girl will be loved eventually, and this person will love better than he can.... but how sad. i hate being able to think it could relate to my life. it always seems to play itself out for me though... sad.
i speak and write in a way that most people don't understand (there are those select few that do... or at least care enough to try. select..) i only really can follow my thoughts... then i can't fixate them to written or spoken word exactly how i want to. everything seems so much more clear and honest and real when it is in my heart... when it is in my mind, but then i try to express them....it just doesn't feel the same. songs can usually help me, though. sometimes. annnnywaaaay. read some lyrics. amazing lyrics.
i will follow you into the dark
love of mine,
someday you will die,
but i'll be close behind.
i'll follow you into the dark.
no blinding light,
or tunnels to gates of white,
just our hands clasped so tight
waiting for the hint of a spark.
if heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied..
illuminate the "no's" on their vacancy signs...
if there's no one beside you when your soul embarks...
then i'll follow you into the dark.
in catholic school,
as vicious as Roman rule,
i got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black.
and i held my tongue as she told me, "son, fear is the heart of love."
so, i never went back.
if heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied..
illuminate the "no's" on their vacancy signs...
if there's no one beside you when your soul embarks...
then i'll follow you into the dark.
you and me have seen everything to see from Bangkok to Calgary..
and the soles (souls) of your shoes are all worn down.
the time for sleep is now.
it's nothing to cry about
cause we'll hold each other soon
in the blackest of rooms.
if heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied..
illuminate the "no's" on their vacancy signs...
if there's no one beside you when your soul embarks...
then i'll follow you into the dark...
and i'll follow you into the dark.
someday you will be loved
i once knew a girl
in the years of my youth
with eyes like the summer:
all beauty and truth.
but in the morning i fled,
left a note and it read,
"someday you will be loved."
i can not pretend that i felt any regret,
cause each broken heart will eventually mend...
and as the blood runs red down the needle and thread,
someday you will be loved.
you'll be loved,
you'll be loved like you never have known,
and the memories of me will seem more like bad dreams--
just a series of blurs,
like i never occurred.
someday, you will be loved.
you may feel alone when you're falling asleep,
and every time tears roll down your cheeks,
but i know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet...
and someday you will be loved.
you'll be loved,
you'll be loved like you never have known,
and the memories of me will seem more like bad dreams--
just a series of blurs,
like i never occurred.
someday, you will be loved.
lastly, this is the new amsterdams song i'm listening to right now. the lyrics are one of those songs that put MY thoughts into words better than i ever could.
he still has my heart, but wont even admit it to himself. it's so fucking destroying to cut off all contact. i've poured my soul out so many times since to get nothing in return. i feel so empty inside now. the weirdest, emptiest loneliness i have never felt before. it'll be embarassing if he reads this, yeah... but i don't see that happening. i don't matter in the slightest way anymore. :(
*the sad state we're in wears so thin*
strangled by the thought
weak from lack of oxygen.
strangled by the thought.
promise you'll remember when im gone.
sleep is mostly optional.
trace lines around my heart.
steal the only breath from my lungs.
and if i had your faith,
i'd be fearless.
but until that day,
i'm envious.
miles and miles that distance us,
like meters on a map.
trace lines that only translate to a day.
but if your awake,
tell me it's safe.
if you ask me to stay,
then i'll stay.
don't leave me here
when i'm bleeding,
when i'm fading,
when i'm true,
and its tempting
to stop everything
when im pourin out to you.
so take everything,
take it all from me.
all i want,
all i want is you.♥
these two songs, lyrically and musically, just seemed to sit with me differently. i love the entire CD, but these two.... wow. i wish someone would write songs like this for me... like write them with me in mind, and mean them to be for me. they both make me want to cry.. but in a good way. they are so touching... like i will follow you into the dark? i will die WITH you? that is the most intense form of love to feel for someone. that is amazing it exists in real life. and someday you will be loved? real real sweet that he is saying this girl will be loved eventually, and this person will love better than he can.... but how sad. i hate being able to think it could relate to my life. it always seems to play itself out for me though... sad.
i speak and write in a way that most people don't understand (there are those select few that do... or at least care enough to try. select..) i only really can follow my thoughts... then i can't fixate them to written or spoken word exactly how i want to. everything seems so much more clear and honest and real when it is in my heart... when it is in my mind, but then i try to express them....it just doesn't feel the same. songs can usually help me, though. sometimes. annnnywaaaay. read some lyrics. amazing lyrics.
i will follow you into the dark
love of mine,
someday you will die,
but i'll be close behind.
i'll follow you into the dark.
no blinding light,
or tunnels to gates of white,
just our hands clasped so tight
waiting for the hint of a spark.
if heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied..
illuminate the "no's" on their vacancy signs...
if there's no one beside you when your soul embarks...
then i'll follow you into the dark.
in catholic school,
as vicious as Roman rule,
i got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black.
and i held my tongue as she told me, "son, fear is the heart of love."
so, i never went back.
if heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied..
illuminate the "no's" on their vacancy signs...
if there's no one beside you when your soul embarks...
then i'll follow you into the dark.
you and me have seen everything to see from Bangkok to Calgary..
and the soles (souls) of your shoes are all worn down.
the time for sleep is now.
it's nothing to cry about
cause we'll hold each other soon
in the blackest of rooms.
if heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied..
illuminate the "no's" on their vacancy signs...
if there's no one beside you when your soul embarks...
then i'll follow you into the dark...
and i'll follow you into the dark.
someday you will be loved
i once knew a girl
in the years of my youth
with eyes like the summer:
all beauty and truth.
but in the morning i fled,
left a note and it read,
"someday you will be loved."
i can not pretend that i felt any regret,
cause each broken heart will eventually mend...
and as the blood runs red down the needle and thread,
someday you will be loved.
you'll be loved,
you'll be loved like you never have known,
and the memories of me will seem more like bad dreams--
just a series of blurs,
like i never occurred.
someday, you will be loved.
you may feel alone when you're falling asleep,
and every time tears roll down your cheeks,
but i know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet...
and someday you will be loved.
you'll be loved,
you'll be loved like you never have known,
and the memories of me will seem more like bad dreams--
just a series of blurs,
like i never occurred.
someday, you will be loved.
lastly, this is the new amsterdams song i'm listening to right now. the lyrics are one of those songs that put MY thoughts into words better than i ever could.
he still has my heart, but wont even admit it to himself. it's so fucking destroying to cut off all contact. i've poured my soul out so many times since to get nothing in return. i feel so empty inside now. the weirdest, emptiest loneliness i have never felt before. it'll be embarassing if he reads this, yeah... but i don't see that happening. i don't matter in the slightest way anymore. :(
*the sad state we're in wears so thin*
strangled by the thought
weak from lack of oxygen.
strangled by the thought.
promise you'll remember when im gone.
sleep is mostly optional.
trace lines around my heart.
steal the only breath from my lungs.
and if i had your faith,
i'd be fearless.
but until that day,
i'm envious.
miles and miles that distance us,
like meters on a map.
trace lines that only translate to a day.
but if your awake,
tell me it's safe.
if you ask me to stay,
then i'll stay.
don't leave me here
when i'm bleeding,
when i'm fading,
when i'm true,
and its tempting
to stop everything
when im pourin out to you.
so take everything,
take it all from me.
all i want,
all i want is you.♥